My Valentine

Was this something? (Kevin's view)

- Kevin, are you okay?- Isa said.
- Do I look okay?
- No, definitely not. I'm so sorry, I couldn't help myself. Tell me something I can do to make you feel better!!!
- Bring Emily back into my life.- She looked mad but kinda sad as well.
- I can't do that, it was her decision to broke up, not mine.
- I just miss her so much...
- Can you stop talking about Emily for a second? Please?- She was pissed off.
- How?
- I don't know, I just know that I literally kissed you two times and all you can do is talk about your ex?? Boy- wake up. She broke up with you!!!
- I know... but I miss her so much.
- I know you do, and I'm sorry, but there's nothing I can do about it.
- I also know that...
- Look... I kissed you because when I said that I really liked you I meant it. I really really like you, but I think you'll never like me back...
- I'm sorry...
- No, it's okay, very okay.
- It's not okay, I felt that before and I know that is not okay.
- Then, could you give me a chance? Maybe you can forget Emily and fall for me, who knows?
- I think you're right...
- Does that mean you'll give me a chance?
- Maybe... I still gotta think about that...
- I'm happy you'll give me a chance!!! I swear you won't regret it!!!
- I hope so too...
Then she gave me a kiss on the cheek and hugged me. After that we left the bathroom and went to check Brandy Melville. It had really pretty clothes. Everything was going well until I saw Emily's favorite top in a corner. I almost started crying again but then Isa turned at me and kissed me again before I could do anything. This time I kissed her back. It wasn't a bad kiss but it wasn't like when I kissed Emily. God, I was always talking about her. I couldn't stop no matter what and that was seriously annoying me. She left me, she wanted nothing more than friendship and it was my fault. If I went and asked her to come back now she'd probably laugh at my face and tell me I was being ridiculous. She would probably be right, but I'd rather having her making fun of me than not having her at all... I was crying again. I was kissing Isa and crying. Kissing Isa and thinking about Emily. Kissing Isa and... I didn't know. Then I pushed Isa away because we were in a public space.
- Not here, Isa. Let's not do this in the middle of the store.
- You're right, I just didn't want to see you cry again. It's too painful for me.
- Thank you. Let's go to another store, I'm feeling kinda uncomfortable here.
- Sure! Where do you wanna go?
- Anywhere but here.
We then left the store and walked around the mall for a while. We then looked at the water fountain and there was she. Emily was sitting while Ken was wiping her tears. I've never seen them this close before and I got jealous. I wanted to hug her and ask her to come back to me, I wanted to tell her that I was sorry for everything. Instead, all I did was keep walking and talking with Isa.
- You know, I told her I loved her by the water fountain.
- And?
- It was supposed to be a special moment, besides Conan my favorite artist is Alec Benjamin, and that's the name of one of his songs.
- Water Fountain?
- Yes, exactly.
- Was that your try to be romantic?
- I tried to be romantic so many times without success.
- Tell me about it.
- I honestly don't want to. Let's just go eat something or whatever.
- Whatever you want.
We then left on our way to the nearest café. It was a small café with a very Texan style, which made sense since we lived in Texas. We sat in a table near the window so we could people watching. It was very fun watching everyone doing something completely different. There was a girl with her mom buying dolls at a toy store, then we saw a boy with his friends and a skate on his hands, he didn't look very happy with that, he probably was doing that to impress his friends, which made me sad for him. We also saw a couple arguing in front of the door of the café. They were really mad, she was almost leaving when he held her hand and gave her a big hug. He then wiped her tears away and apologized, after that he kissed her and they entered in the café. Everything seemed okay for them now. I got myself thinking why I haven't done that with Emily. Why didn't I apologize and wiped her tears away? Why did I let her break up with me without doing anything? I was so stupid... Now I was at a café watching people with Isa. How did my life end up like this? I had to talk with my best friend. Since I couldn't talk with Emily, for obvious reasons, I texted Cami.
- Dude, what?
- I know, I know, I messed up everything.
- You sure did, what the hell, Kevin?
- I cried the whole time, don't make me cry again.
- Where are you now?
- I'm at a café with Isa.
- Wait, why are you with Isa?
- It's a long story.
- Oh god, why I have such stupid friends?
- Hey!
- Sorry, but you gotta hear the truth.
- I know...
- Anyways, we gotta do something about that.
- I don't know... maybe we really are better as friends.
- Are you kidding me? You did everything you could for her to love you back, and know you'll just simply let her go?? Are you being serious??
- Yes, I am. Maybe the whole reason this happened was because we started dating in first place.
- You can't be serious rn.
- Well, I am indeed very serious.
- So, you'll just simply give up??
- If I go after her now we'll probably end up more hurt.
- Are you really sure you don't wanna think about this better??
- I am sure, at least for now.
- Okay, your decision. You're the one who will regret later. Remember, if you mess up everything again, I won't be as gentle as I am being right now. Someone gotta put some brain cells in your head.
- You're right, thank you.
- Of course. Now, what are you doing with Isa? You gotta answer, idc if it's a long story.
- Well... she kinda... kissed me.
- WHAT THE HELL?!? IS SHE STUPID?!?
- Hey, she's your friend as well.
- I KNOW, WHY DO YOU THINK I AM REACTING LIKE THIS?!?
- Fair.
- Why did... why did she kiss you?
- She said she likes me.
- ...
- Cami?
- What the hell is wrong with that girl...
- Cami, are you okay?
- Yes, I just gotta talk with Isa later, but keep going.
- It was basically that. I'm so confused right now. I don't know what to do...
- Go home, eat ice cream, do the normal stuff people do when they break up with someone they loved.
- It's not that easy...
- Yes it is, I'm going to buy ice cream and I'll head up to your house. We're going to make you get over Emily in the right way.
- Okay...
- I'm going to the store now. See you later!
- Bye!
Cami was very nice and she was right. I didn't know what happened with Isa to kiss me like that out of nowhere, and I also didn't know why I kissed her back, and why did I enjoy it?
It was all so weird, I had so much stuff in mind. I sincerely had no idea what to do, so I simply ordered a coffee and cried in silence.
- Are you okay?- Isa asked.
- Not sure anymore.
- I understand.
- Thanks.
- Do you want to see a movie or something? I can take you to the cinema if you want.
- No, it's okay. I'm going to meet with Cami later.
- Oh- Can I go?
- What?
- Yeah, like, she's my friend too, it'd be fun! Three Coneheads listening to Conan and crying together.
- Actually, I'd rather do that only with Cami. I'm sorry, Isa.
- Oh... yeah, it's fine. I understand.
- Thank you.
- Do you need anything more?
- Not sure. I'll just finish this and go home.
- Okay...
I finished drinking my coffee and I left the café. Isa was still there because she ordered more stuff. Maybe I should've waited for her to finish eating her food, but I couldn't be there anymore. It was too painful for me...
I was almost leaving the mall when I saw Heather. This time she was alone, which was very weird, she was very extrovert and was always with someone. I could've stopped to say hi, but she didn't deserve after all she did to us. So I just ignored her. I think she saw me because she got closer, and closer and then. BOOM! She slapped my face.
- Ouch! What the hell, Heather!
- This was because you deserve it!
- What?
- You have some kind of obsession with breaking up with girls after you gave them some hope, don't you?
- What the hell are you talking about?
- First me, because of Emily, now Emily because of Isa. You sure never stop!
- What-
- Yes, I know everything, and I hate Emily, I surely do, but even though I hate her, I thought you loved her. I thought you had dumped me because you truly had feelings for her. But no. You used her just like you used me. You used us and then you just discarded us. And I'm sure you'll do the same with Isa...
- How do you know about Isa??
- I was at Brandy Melville when she kissed you. I saw the whole thing.
- How did you...
- Stop, I don't care. I hate Emily and now I hate you too. I liked you, I thought we were at least friends. If you think that I'm a bad person after all I did, you should look in the mirror, because you're way worse.
- Heather, I-
- I don't wanna hear your excuses, I'm leaving. I don't wanna look at your face.
Heather left and she got me thinking... Did girls really think I was a player? I wasn't a player, Emily broke up with me. I did nothing but get a broken heart... right? I know I messed up stuff but still, she was the only who left. She was the one who never had the guts to tell me she loved me back. She was the reason why all of this was happening. After everything I had to go home. I was crying again. I started thinking that maybe the idea of ice cream and a movie to forget Emily wasn't that bad. At least I could stop thinking about everything that happened today for a while. I mean, I had to. Otherwise my head would explode. The only thing between me and my mind exploding was Cami and her ice cream and movie. I had hope that would help. It was all I could do...