Below The Surface | SEVENTEEN FF [ON HOLD]

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Jinas POV:
I stare at the mirror, as I eyed my dress. This was the only dress I could find that covered most of my body parts, excluding my legs.

I wasn't a fan of showing my skin from my other body parts whatsoever as I prefer to keep them hidden. There weren't any mentions of any type of dress code from the invitation card though, so this should be fine, hopefully.

The party starts at 7pm, and it's currently 6pm at the moment, which means I still have an hour left. I got ready earlier to ease my anxiety because if I decided to wait a little longer, I would feel more anxious.

Along the way, I did my usual makeup as well. I prefer natural makeup over heavy makeup. I made it so it highlights the features I'm most confident in.

Then, I straightened my hair, leaving my hair out loose so I can feel more secure. I placed most of my hair pieces at the front to cover my chest.

Needless to say, I wasn't a fan of how big my chest is. I don't know if this is considered a "weird" insecurity, but I've always tried to make them appear less big.

That also explains why I always wear loose clothes to college, because I didn't want them to stand out on my entire appearance.

'High school trauma' is what caused me to think that way.

I decided to go to my cafe first to get myself a hot drink, before going to the party place. I don't know about you, but hot drinks are the best when drunk in the afternoon.

It gives me that aesthetic vibe.

That was another way for me to decrease my anxiousness. I sat at a corner in front of a window, giving me an overview of the road, and people walking by.

There was still some light in the sky despite the time getting close to 7pm. I still had a good half an hour to spare, so I took this opportunity to admire the view in front of me.

After that, I walked my way out to the location of the place the party was held by using the GPS on my phone. Luckily, it wasn't really far from the college itself.

I slow my steps, as I take a deep breath to calm myself again before entering the place. Despite the time hitting exactly 7pm, it was already pretty crowded, forming a sense of overwhelm-ness in me.

I couldn't help, but to freeze on my spot standing like a child who has lost their parents and had no idea where to go.

People were already all over each other, the reek smell of alcohol consumed my nostrils making me scrunch in disgust.

Gathering up my courage, I take a deep breath before forcing myself to walk forward while anxiously looking around to see what to do. I found an empty table not so far from there, making me feel relieved. I awkwardly sat down.

I could feel some people, especially groups of girls staring at me with a judgmental look whilst whispering amongst themselves, making me quietly sigh. I knew this was going to happen hence why I never went to parties in the first place, however I can't really back down now.