Infatuated Desire

After Five Years

"If you come here to make fun of my state or feel pity for me then immediately just leave....."

He said seriously focusing his eyes on the wall of the prison. For once, he didn't try to turn and gazed at the arriving person.

"The one who himself is pitiful how she can make fun of others....so you don't worry I am not here to make fun of you or feel pity for you."

Today there was not any haughtiness or arrogance in her tone and Aazal clearly sensed it.

"So why do you come here..... Just get lost from here let alone talking with you I don't want to look at your face..... The reason for this is you that today if I am in this state, Laraib Ali Shah..... Only you."

This time he abruptly turned towards her and roared. While Laraib after seeing his extreme reaction momentarily dreaded from him.

"Whatever we did, we did it together. But I was the only one who got its punishment..... And here you are living your life comfortably..... While here I am in this prison."

He knew very well that it was no one else but Asfand who informed the police about his illegal work. Very cleverly he played a game with him and he was unaware of his plan.

If he had forsaken his useless stubbornness and didn't partner with Laraib then today he wouldn't be here. And now he was badly regretting it. But what use of it now as everything has slipped from his hand?

"You will live just for a few months in this prison and complete your punishment....or perhaps you don't have to live here that much because your dad will somehow take you out of here....but I...."

Saying that she stopped for a moment and glanced at Aazal whose face was clearly telling about his feeling of regret.

"My punishment is for my whole life, Aazal..... Which perhaps never going to end..... I was so blinded by the love that made me do many wrong things..... I humiliated one and the other one was going to lose her life because of me."

With a guilty look on her face, she was confessing her wrongdoings in front of him. While Aazal with stun expression on his face was gazing at her.

Because it was the first time in his life that he saw tears in the eyes of Laraib Ali Shah who other than pain and trouble didn't give anything else to people.

"And this is my punishment that despite having a son and brother I live my life alone."

Her eyes were fixed on some point while telling him this.

"Laraib Ali Shah is accepting her sins by herself.... it seems hard to believe in all this."

This time Aazal couldn't stop himself that's why he instantly said that.

"Yesterday after seeing the hatred in the eyes of my brother and everyone else present there I felt that I never seek love in my life. I only thought about my happiness..... That’s why despite having my family today I am totally alone."

This time there was a pain in her voice which Aazal can felt it.

"I am not forgetting the hatred hidden in the eyes and words of my brother....."

She slowly swiped out the tears streaming down her cheeks. And then glanced at Aazal whose eyes were filled with contempt for her.

"Anyways, I came here to meet you for the last time. Because tomorrow I am going back to London.... perhaps we don't ever meet again in life."

After saying that, she tried to smile but her eyes were not cooperating in her doing this.

"What's this? Are you going this time for good?"

He now felt sad after seeing the condition of Laraib but he can't do anything other than feel sad for her.

"If any of my family members forgive then maybe I think about coming back.....but I don't think anyone could forsake me after what worse I did with them."

As she said that, she turned around to leave. But her feet stopped in her place after listening to the voice of Aazal.

"I will contact you after coming out of here...we are friends, after all."

On Aazal telling her that, she slightly smiled and turned around for leaving. Aazal kept on standing there seeing her departed figure till doesn't she disappeared from his eyes.

***********

After five years

"What happened, Aashir's son? Why are you sitting here sad?"

Sanam, who after getting free from the chores of the kitchen and coming to the lounge, came near Aashir on finding him sitting on the sofa with an off face.

"And what is this going on? What you made of your books......why are they all scattered like that?"

This time she became a bit confounded as her eyes went to the scattered books of Aashir on the table.

"I didn't do this all, mama.... making such condition of my books are angels."

Answering innocently the Sanam question he started collecting his scattered things from the table. And Sanam exhaled a long breath after listening to the angels from his mouth.

His angels were no one else but his twin sisters Ansha and Isha. Four years old Ansha and Isha who every time kept annoying her ten years old brother with her naughtiness.

"And why they both did this.....why didn't you scold them? Let me see them both and how they can annoy their brother like that?"

Sanam said with little anger while collecting his books with him. While Aashir after listening to scold from her mouth became a bit nervous.

"No mama, you don't scold them. Actually, they both want to play with me but I have to do my homework......they became just angry on my forbidding that's why they did this."

He immediately took their side to defend them. Seeing him defending his sisters despite their having fault Sanam gazed at him lovingly.

He really adores his younger sisters. He carries their tantrums. They both always kept annoying him but he was never bothered by it.

Sanam still remembers when for the first time he saw his sisters that day his lilting face was worth looking at. After all his wish for two sisters became true.

Since that day and till now he takes care of them like an elder brother. Even though he himself was a ten-year-old child but for his sisters, he was their elder brother.

Along with Asfand and Sanam, Mr. Hayat was also feeling satisfied on seeing his that much love for Ansha and Isha. If they both do something wrong he doesn't let Sanam scold them or say anything to them.

And today as well something like that happened. He also loves Haadi two years old son Kaashi. But Haadi established his business outside of the country that's why he was living abroad with his wife and son.

Every second month later they came here to meet them.

"Ok alright I am not going to say anything to them.....so now you don't need to hide them."

After setting properly his school bag, she said gazing here and there. And behind the twister sofa, she saw these little’s sitting. She stood up from her place while Aashir tried to stop her from going there.

As always they both hide like that from their mother to save themselves from mother scolding them after doing a prank.

"When you both are afraid of mama scolding then why do you do that much naughtiness.....and why did you both play with the books of your brother?"

She held both from their little tiny hands and took her out and sat them on the sofa beside Aashir. Then she one by one questioned them both who was scared of the mother being serious with them.

"Aashir's brother was forbidding to play with us .....And there's no one else to play with us. So with whom do we play?"

Isha blabbered this and she was the one who speaks more than Ansha.

"You both knew this well when the teacher of Aashir will see his torn notebook then your Aashir brother will be scolded....will it feels good to you when his teacher will scold him?"

She questioned them both looking at their innocent faces. In that, they both shook their head negatively.

"So from now on you, both will not do this again.....now go ahead and like good children quickly say sorry to your brother."

Running her hand on their cheeks she very lovingly was making both understand.

"Sorry Aashir brother.... now we both will not do this..... Your teacher will not scold you now, will she?"

They both got up from their place and stood in front of Aashir. With all the innocent on their faces, they were saying sorry to him. On that, Aashir as well as Sanam both smiled.

"No, she will not scold now."

One by one he kissed them both on their puffy cheeks. Both faces lit with happiness.

"Ok mama, we are going for playing.... brother, when you are done with your work then you also come for playing with us."

After their sorry was accepted they didn't stop there. Saying that they quickly ran from there. While Sanam kept on calling their names.

"They both are becoming very naughty. They can't even listen to me...."

On their hurriedness, she said in concern. And Aashir smiled at that.

"Ohh yes, Aashir I told you yesterday that you talk with your mother. Did you talk? For the last few days, you are not calling her."

Sanam asked him when she abruptly remembered.

For the last two years, Laraib was in touch with Sanam. Three years later after going to London she took the courage of asking forgiveness from Sanam as well as from other people. Except Wadan, everyone forgave her.

She took permission from Asfand and Sanam to talk with her son. And Sanam happily let her talk with him.

When Asfand came to know about he objected to it. But Sanam has silenced him by saying that being Aashir's mother he can't snatch that right from her. She just wants to talk with him and she can at least do this for her.

"Alright mama, I will talk with her after doing my work."

Aashir doesn't love his mother but he was now respecting her. And it was all because of Sanam understanding him. On her telling, he also talks with her now.

"My lovely son....now you complete your work. I will check both of them. Your dad is also about to come."

Lovingly she bosomed him on his forehead and got up from her place and walked towards the lawn. Because she knew her both princesses will be playing there.