What happens when Jackie meets her new teammate Y/n who was traded for the Los Angeles Sparks?Will she be able to keep her emotions and feelings under control so it won't effect the team? Or will their new found love lead be one of their best decisi...
Ever since that whole situation that went down between y/n and my ex she's been kind of distant. I ask her just about everyday if she's ok and she says yes, but I can tell she isn't because I feel that her energy is off. Today was Sunday and we were getting ready for church.
Not gonna lie I have been slacking on going to church because of how hectic our schedules were during the season and off season. I feel really good about us going to church today because I think it is going to help build up our relationship after all that happened these past couple days.
I was in the bathroom finishing straightening my hair and doing my edges. I gently combed my hair and started putting on my shoes and spraying on some of my perfume. "Bae are you almost done were going to be late!" I heard y/n yell out to me.
"Yeah I'm done here I come!" I called back out to her. I walked out of the bathroom and seen her scrolling on her phone. "You look good baby" I complimented her as I grabbed my purse and keys. She looked up from her phone smiling at me, "thank you, you look beautiful ma" she said standing up giving me a kiss.
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(Time Skip)
As expected we were a little late but we still made it in time for praise and worship. "Our God is an awesome God he reigns!" the choir sang. I stood up clapping singing along softly. They continued to sing that song until "Melodies from heaven" by Kirk Franklin started. I looked over to my side and seen Y/n stand up so quick when she heard the beat to her favorite song. I smiled watching her as she started singing along and vibing out to the song.
Melodies from heaven
Rain down on me, rain down on me
Everyoneinthechurchstarted singing together and it sounded so powerful and joyful. I got out my phone and started recording Y/n as I watched her with the biggest grin on her face. When the song finally finished the pastor came out and said everyone could take their seats. "Good morning everyone! Today's topic we will be about letting past relationships control your new relationship".
Y/n Pov
"Good morning everyone! Today's topic we will be about letting past relationships control your new relationship" the pastor said making me hum and shake my head already seeing where this was going to go.
"Many of you here today still hold this pain and anger from your last relationship, which is now effecting your current because all that hurt from the past you are letting still live inside of you, which could be coming out as anger issues or a short temper".
I held my head low and guilty as I thought about all the pain I endured from relationships in my past that I never let out but I'm just now letting it out on people who are actually good to me. All my life i've been hurt left and right from people who I loved and thought loved me.
Most of my anger comes from my disappearing on me and my dad being abusive to me because my mom disappeared. I tried to find some type of safe space in relationships but I always ended up getting cheated on which made me lose trust in everyone and everything.
I never had a true solid person in my life besides my aunt of course. I love my aunt to death but it's like at some point you want that certain type of love from your parents and if not your parents than someone your in a relationship with you know?
"As of today I declare that God let's you free from all that damage someone has done to your good heart even after all the love you gave them, just for them to not return that love and stab you in the back!" the pastor preached making a tear roll down my face.
I started sniffling as more and more tears started to stream down my face as I couldn't hold it in anymore. I hid my face in my shirt as I felt all of my emotions that I had bottled up come flushing out like the flood gates were just opened. I felt Jackie's hand start gently rubbing circles on my back as a way to comfort me. "It's ok baby just let it all out my love" she whispered as she continued to listen.
(Time Skip)
We just got out of church and we were now on our way to pick up some food to eat. The whole ride nothing was said as we just sat in a comfortable silence as the radio played softly in the back. "Do you think I have a anger issues" I asked abruptly, Jackie turned her head towards me and stared at me before answering my question.
"I wouldn't say you have anger issues but I did notice that you have a short temper I guess you could say" she said honestly. I nodded my head slowly in understanding, "I- I'm gonna go to therapy soon" I stuttered out.
She lifted her eyebrow up in confusion from my statement. "Why do you wanna go to therapy baby?" she asked me curiously. "I just have a lot bottled up and when I think about it the more I don't let it out the more hurt i'm going to cause other people I love around me because of the hurt someone else caused me" I said to her in a calm sincere tone. She hummed nodding her head, "I'm proud of you baby" she said placing her hand on my thigh. "Thank you mama" I said grabbing a hold of her hand and placing a soft kiss on it.
I really have got to get right because I don't want to hurt her or cause any issues between us... I love her to much to let any of that happen..
(A/N) Quick little fill in chapter for you guys I guess since I haven't really updated this book in a couple weeks.
