Forgiveness through Love and Faith

1 WISHFUL THINKING

 What happen to the days when things were little better built and they lasted. Even I could stand a few of those days myself, I just wished that I could get the sleep out of my eyes and I could feel a little better though I know it's going to take eight months to even fell better. Just maybe I could have some relief of all the problems going on, I pray that I could stay focused on this thing they called writing.

It was a very beautiful afternoon with very little wind as the backyard and the around the crystal clear blue swimming pool was decorated with Maryiane's wild rose bushes that she and daughter Julia had planted on hers and Shefron Callsburg's sixth wedding anniversary, smelling so sweet as their fragrance was blown gently on the wind. Maryiane and her friend Eugnia Dakster were preparing the ice bar for the cold food and drinks with the help of Maryiane's two younger daughters Emmaline who called paper plates fine china and Crinnane who was overseeing the pool house for guest to change into their swimwear if they wanted for a swim. 

Shefron, along with some of his employees and his friend of long standing Verle Dakster were setting up the table for the food to be served from as well as the grill for the food. While Verle's son Erron was also helping with the setup of the chairs around some of the tables for those who wanted tables to eat at were available.

The guest have all started to arrive and brought their food items to help with the food editions as well. While they were arriving, and mingling with others that are there as well, Erron slips off to the house unnoticed.

Julia arrived just one half hour after all of the guest arrive and starts unpacking her bags from the trip home, slipping into the bathroom for a quick shower she remembers her clothes on the bed. Wrapping a towel around herself and going into her poorly light room she's grabbed from behind and shoved face down by a mysterious man who had done the unthinkable to her, leaving her in pain.

Crinnane walking past the door hears Julia's soft cries "it hurts so bad why did it happen to me why" Crinnane peers around to door facing and quietly walks over to Julia putting her arms around her and saying "you'll be fine. Lord help sister through this time and bless her body for your will. and whoever did this give them the same misery they dealt to my sister. Amen" Julia quietly agreed with her sister's prayer.

Crinnane helped Julia to clean up and get dressed for the garden party that was going on in their backyard. As they walked slowly out the door they saw their parents and walked over to them straight way. Shefron reintroduced Julia to Verle Dakster as the one who had the internship available for her to start this next week. Julia agreed to this. This would be the finale part of college before she graduated with a masters degree in business management from the University of Criesdale.

On the day I was to start work, I was seated next to a young lady who had worked at Daksters for a long time , she was a very nice person to be around. Then he walks in, it seemed that he, Erron Dakster was wearing a plaid shirt that was deep blue color, flannel feel material paired with a dark denim jeans, he features were just plain to look at and as he passed by my desk he knew my name, even though I was not wearing a name tag like the rest of the employees.

"It just so happened to be the Boss" one of my co-workers had said, as she ogle eyed him.

"Oh" I said as I am not impressed a bit, I just wanted to get out of there and leave for awhile, as he had a magnetism about him that caused other females to fall at his feet which made me sick to even think about it. I would not do that ever again, because I knew I was not that kind of person that would fit into his world or anyone else for that matter.

As he stopped by our desks His approach was a gentle one when he asked "Was there anything I could help with or something I should know about?"

Little did Erron realize that he was the problem, as I recognized his cologne from that night at the party that my dad gave over a month ago and I was the one that he forced himself upon me, where I lost my innocence that night. I did not want to remind him of that either and nor did I wish to bring back those horrible memories of that night. I could smell alcohol on his breath that night as he drunkenly promised to take care of me and then left calling me a whore that was the best he had yet. I cringed at those words and feared I would be labeled as such I pray and hope that when he finds out who he was with that the guilt would not leave him alone not even in his sleep. For I am my father's daughter when it comes to karma. He is very ruthless when it come down to anything dealing with business and I for one believe he thought of it as a business that was free and did not have to pay the price. He's such a disgrace to the male race when it comes down to it.

When I told my dad and mom of the incident that happened they both were very heart sick, it was one time when they were not as vigilant to what was happening to my sisters and me that it happened. Dad provided a way for me to earn and make money by joining his company starting from the bottom of the company to learn the inside dealings with other corporations. So I left my current internship and went to work for dad. I was actually doing what my dad and mom planned for me to do which is to learn the skills of the company that they owned as in order to have someone to take over when they retired. When I spoke to the college advisor about needing to be with family, they agreed to complete the internship early to graduate with my degree.

He's tall and lean built with brown hair and coal black eyes that would sink any heart with just a glance, started feeling disgusted with himself for what he had done that night, remorse would not touch the feeling he had felt since that time. All he could see was the frightened face she had when he pulled her aside to fulfill his own need and not caring about anyone else in the situation. He was wanting to find her and tell her he would take the full responsibility even if it meant going to jail for what he had done to her, yet he was hoping that she would forgive him and allow him to be part of her world. His praying did not seem to help him either way as it made him feel more guilty.

Erron was scheduled for a meeting with my dad for a joint venture project to increase both sides earning capacity. He came by the office only to find me sitting behind that desk working on the papers left behind from my father's previous work schedule that he allowed me to take over. Upon standing up to greet him, I had to push back and attempt to half stand due to my enlarged abdomen that screamed pregnant all over it which I could not hide. His face went pure white as a sheet like he had seen a ghost, he looked puzzled.

"How? When? I haven't seen you in a long time. Who's is it?" Erron bombarded me with questions about the pregnancy.

"I don't know him, I only know that it was during the party my dad had given several months ago", I said with a stern voice, "What can I do for you and how can I help you?"  I was trying to keep the attention away from me.

"It's about the joint venture that I had talked to your dad about and was wondering if we could make it work and if so what do we need to do and how?", he had lots of questions that I had answers for.

As I started answering the yes it can be done and how it can be done with very little start up and go big in three weeks after putting it to use in a different area that showed signs of making a profit in as little as six months and the profit margins were small to begin with unless you added more capital to it then the returns would be better in the six month trial period it would run for. Erron agreed with the venture. He signed the legal documents, as I had also signed them and handed to the lawyers to file.

"Is your dad at home?" Erron asked. With me now looking puzzled at him. "if so I need to talk to him about something."

"Yes, he's at home enjoying his retirement with mom, Why?" I replied questioningly.

"There's something he needs to know, and I believe you might want to hear this as well, I know you are expecting this baby soon and I want to take responsibility for what happened, I know you may not be able to forgive me for this happening the way it did and I know I was wrong to even force this on you now that I see you, this is just not what I really wanted when it happened, and I'm scared" Erron spoke up about the night that this took place.

Please tell me what you think about this change up and if it helped. I will be editing along the way as I have more parts to add to the chapters. Thank you for not copying the story as I have this in my own handwriting and it is copyrighted.