"The moon is beautiful, isn't it?" BL

-13-

After the break I took Conner straight home. He went to his room and I went to mine. I wasn't hungry. I didn't feel like doing anything. I wanted to be alone forever.
     Ding. Ding. Ding.
My phone started ringing.
    "Hello?" I asked answering the phone
  "Hi sweetheart" a voice replied "how you feeling"
     "Fine" I replied not wanting to talk about it.
"Ok now let's try the truth" he said
      "I don't want to talk about it" I said and was about to hang up the phone but he said.
    "I wanted to tell you, you left something here. Is there anyway you could come get it?"
     "What is it?" I asked him
"Just come get it. And bring your brother if you have to" he said and hung up the phone
   
    No matter how depressed I was feeling he always gave me a sense of calmness. Like I could rely on him for anything. Or could tell him anything even though I never would.
    "Conner!" I yelled "come here real quick"
He came right into my room seconds later.
     "I wanna go to my friend's house. You wanna come?" I asked
    "Really?" He asked smiling happily
"Yea really" I said "go get your shoes on"

     'I'll be there soon' I texted Julian
He just sent heart emoji's back. Damn. Why does he do this to me? I like him and he's sending me heart emojis but they don't mean anything to him.
    Wait.... Did I just admit I liked him? Damn I guess I really do.
     I walked out of my room and grabbed the keys that were sitting on the counter and walked outside. I got in the extra car we have and turned it on, waiting for Conner.
    While he was walking out the house he was on the phone.
    "I know I love you to" he said getting in the car and hung up the phone
    "Who ya talking to?" I asked knowing it'd be a girl.
    "My girlfriend" he said "and I swear if you lecture me about not having sex I will walk back inside"
    "I wasn't going to lecture. I was just gonna say use a condom." I replied and drove off before he had the chance to get out.
    Not even 10 minutes later we arrived. I got out and walked to the door and knocked.
     "Hi" he said smiling "you must be Lens little brother" he turned to Conner
    "Conner" Conner replied not giving him the time of day. "Can I go call Lizzy?"
     "Yeah do whatever" I said rolling my eyes.
I walked inside and up the stairs to Julian's room.
   "So what did I forget?" I asked
"Nothing to important" he replied
    I walked in his room and he followed me in. He shit the door behind him and pushed me up against the wall. This wasn't like the other times something felt different.
  "I just wanted to see you again" he added lifting my chin up. "Sweetheart"
    My heart started racing. His face was inches from mine and I could feel his breathing on my lips.
    "Do you mind if I kiss your cheek?" He asked
I didn't respond. Yes I wanted him to but I was too embarrassed to say that.
    "Stay quiet if it's a yes" he said
I still didn't say anything.
    He quickly pecked my cheek. Holy shit. He just kissed my cheek. Then  again. This time was longer. He stayed on my cheek longer.
    The feeling of his lips on my skin felt amazing. Like something you'd get addicted to. This was my addiction. My new addiction. Him.

     "Now for what you forgot" he said and handed me a shirt
    "That's all" I asked stupidly
"Yep" he replied
       "Dude you could've givin it to me when we go to school" I said laughing
     He smiled and said "I mean yes but then I wouldn't get to kiss you"
     "But you kissed my cheek there's a difference between kissing me and kissing a part of me." I replied
    "Did you want me to kiss you " he asked
"I guess we'll never find out" I said
      "No" he started walking closer "I want to find out"
"Too bad"
     "What would you do if I just kissed you?" He asked.
     "Well that depends" I said not believing the conversation we were having
     "On what?"
"If you kissed me" I said bluntly
      "Do I have your permission to kiss you?" He asked only centimeters away now.
    I nodded slowly and he leaned in connecting our lips. OH MY GOD!!!! This was actually happening. It wasn't a dream and it wasn't my imagination. This was real life. My first kiss.
     I leaned into him and he deepened the kiss. His hands searched my body. He pulled my closer and pulled his head away for air.
     I looked down embarrassed to look him in the eye.
    "Hey," he said "look at me"
I turned my head and looked him directly in the eye. It felt like forever. I could get lost in his eyes forever. But it was only a few seconds before we plunged out lips into each others.
     They moved in sync and his hands started exploring my body again. One hand went under my shirt touching every crevice. It felt good. Mainly since it was coming from him.
     "Hmm" I moaned into the kiss as he touched my nipple.
      He pulled away and asked in a teasingly voice "you like that?"
    "Shut up" I said and kissed him again.
 
   If only this happened sooner. I never knew what I was missing.