I do a lot of modelling self modelling where I do my own photo shoot make up and obviously put on clothing. I find that models these days don't put on very much clothing that I don't like so I'd rather just do it myself where I have rules and boundaries with the modeling. That being said, the model is more cosplay of my ancestors is kind of like my, YouTube channel but more with face paint than anything else where I'm going around taking pictures of myself with a elaborate make up and face paint and enjoying nature. What had happened? Why do I have to do it in nature is because someone scammed me one time, and I have to do my modeling. There is no other human life except myself and my iPad so I do that and actually complements my make up a lot more than let's say just be jerky and taking off my clothing for a professional. This is where a professional will not be a good idea in my opinion, I like to do my own photo shoots my own, make up and have my clothing on and not have to worry about people noticing my stuff that should not be noticed!
Started modelling shamanic Makeup instead of just the usual westernized modelling that is more glowers and so far more tied in with nature, as is my healing abilities, and healing believes this is basically the same thing because I want to honour my ancestors instead of being glamorous, are more interested in being real and being in the first place, I was thousands of years ago my ancestors cosplaying as them basically, and just going around with the make up and going around in nature and enjoying the scenery and the lack of human life in a forest and just taking pictures and actually looking like one of my ancestors, that is the most tasteful way to do about your modelling not glamorous, but more creative instead of just being glamorous and pretty why don't you try just being creative and strange, weird and more connected to ancestry that would be a lot easier than I say modelling of an ugly dress that really is ugly or not modelling anything on your body at all which I find is just disgusting!
That being said, I do my make up and I do it the same way my ancestors do with the modern face painting techniques as I took a face painting class. One time I saw that I was modelling and I found it. It actually helped with my anger management one day, so I did it again still gonna do it again from time to time because I lied tomorrow is actually therapeutic for me and it helps with my anger management because you're out nature you're able to enjoy whatever creativity you do with your make up and just enjoy the fact that you don't have to worry about , whatever is going on you just have to be yourself where is your modelling for a professional? You have to the other person instead of yourself when you please other people you can't please yourself if you please yourself and enjoy your time modelling and be creative and original, and have clothing on it's more appealing to other people as well. I fly so I do that, as well as I find it's very interesting to be therapeutic as well!
I cannot go on model mayhem because they have strict gatekeepers and there might be these there. I called them but NSFW people that will take advantage of you, so I just go to Flickr wherever I can find legitimate place to post my pictures Instagram not gonna tell you what my name is you can find that out yourself that being said it's very interesting to just enjoy your creative process and I keep the pictures as well so I can actually , enjoy making self porches out of them on Picsart. I will tell you that username too, but I am not a jackass!
What I like about doing self modelling or your own modelling shoes is that you can do your own make up the way you want to do it how you wanna do it when you wanna do it just as long as it's not in the middle of the night because you're in a forest and stuff like that you're more creative to yourself than anything else and I find when I do that I find inspiration with my ancestors, the Scythian's , the Siberian, Amazonian in central Asian peoples that have been around for thousands of years. I find that my ancestry is a big inspiration and a lot of things that I do for creativity. That is why I do a lot of cairns- you are wondering? A cairn Is a balancing act of stones where are you stones putting them in a pile for a funeral or artistic purposes sometimes I do that as well instead of just western crap I find there's a lot of faults with western modelling and having to be glamorous or just a lot of crap with not being able to be yourself for who you are so I just do things the way that my people from where I was born to the actual Asian step actually do more good with being themselves and actually showing authenticity and enjoying life as it is sometimes it's a lot easier that way to just be more nature instead of dealing with having to be glamorous, having to be pretty having to do this having to do that! as much as I like being in the western culture and western culture, you have to conform to a lot of things I find that I don't like I don't like them at all so I'd rather just go the way of my ancestors if I could I'd be living in a yurt!
In the back yard if I could!
Since this is not where my ancestors resided, I have to do usual things I have to celebrate Christmas. I have to do a lot of things that are crummy but at least when I model new creative things I can be who I authentically am instead of being just playing blah! You would call my style of modelling alternative modelling that might be so that would be the more example I would say Shamanic modeling! More holistic way to be modeling. I still will be doing this even if it's winter time I might find a way to do this, so I have to worry about stress or just being able to take pictures of myself and not have to worry about other shit like let's say, I don't know what having to be whatever people say you have to be that's more important to me than anything else. that's why I'm model is just say your call be who you really are who you are inside and I'll come out and you'll be a lot easier and more truthful. This is why I do a lot of modelling and self modelling and enjoying the actual fun and art of modelling.
It's kind of like Halloween if you do it, right!
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The girl who is the full moon |memoir 2| complete
Non-FictionMy memoir sequel of "the girl who should've been left at airport security!" This will talk about my life at present, my goals and aspirations as well some more positive out look on life! Though the thirty five years were rough, let's see if I ca...
