Since I moved to my group home, I found that life is not the Jerry Springer show or the Steve Wilkos show or anything like that it's just life there is still some bullshit and drama but at least you're not yelling and screaming and causing more of it and probably getting into fights that being said you know why I moved to the group home because of the toxic drama my life used to be exactly like the Jerry Springer show especially when my mother was found out to be cheating by your truly I was not exactly happy about that and it was complete a Pavil and I didn't know what to think of that but anyways now things are settling down I'm able to go on outings I'm able to do things i am able to love, I'm not going to do very much things are gonna be stupid, but let's just say I'm going to feel my emotions and acknowledge them, and maybe even the unfortunate less than that I might learn from them that being said is very interesting to see what not so fun educational stuff that life throws out you as well. That are not in the form of a book.!
Last time I had drama was, when my boyfriend did not show up at basketball that being said I'm not gonna mention his name for privacy reasons but anyways, I heard a couple of things that were contradictory one from his work and one from his friend. The one from his friend was more negative sounding then what said from his worker his friend said that he didn't wanna talk to anyone see anyone or anyone or everyone and he didn't like anything that being said, I found that disconcerting, and I found that he was trying to break up with me for some fucked up reason that triggered me and then I got mixed messages saying he's not trying to do that. He's dressed in a rot and stuff like that. I didn't know what to think so this is what I did anyways!
I took the locket that he gave me smashed it with my foot on the ground and I was not exactly fucking happy with the situation and I know it's just got uglier from there but that was the only time my life has been like Gary Springer since I moved to the groove other than that I am very low-key I'm very happy to be around and I'm just around and I am a house cut. I don't antagonize I don't I just do what I do and I'm done and that's it when there's an outing I jump to my feet and say where and I'm happy about that.
It's a very simple life to be like a house where you can do your things, but as I said, you can't avoid drama and bad toxic stuff when you're dealing with relationship sometimes so there is gonna be the element of risk that your life is still gonna be like a spring or show and some cases especially when your boyfriend is so he's gonna close himself off to the world! That wasn't exactly my Highpoint in my life in the group home that being said I'm not gonna mention more about that but when are you deal with the relationships Romantic relationship especially! You're still having some drama you can't avoid it it's still gonna be there, but what I can do is, I just can hope for the best that the drama was not too toxic enough to cause the break up that I am so dreading and still accepting at the same time!
I rather keep things low-key some cases where I do not blow up and lose my Kaka and public. My Kaka made shit I don't like to lose my shit in public, and look like an asshole and look like someone in a poor light I may as well be doing Nude photos and doing stupid stuff like that if I want to be looked at a poor light button. In this case, I didn't have to strip for this. I just had a strip my dignity and smash the damn lock it when I could just take it off at home and hidden it away or the sun doesn't shine no one can see it no one can find it somewhere in my laundry, baskets of clothing. That being said, I wish I did that that would've been a more better approach than bitch and moan and stuff like that later on, but I didn't do that as I said, I try to be low-key, and I try to be happy and kind and compassionate to people trying to help myself as well as other people and someways, but without having to go out of my way like having a really huge powerful career that can help people I just try to help people that's about it if they need help I'll try to help them. If they don't they don't get the help, but if they want to help as well, they can get it too but as they said I don't go around everything will be good or bad I can make a but bad I rather not deal with that kind of shit and deal with the consequences in this case, with the smashing of the locket was the consequence of having to go to my apartment and having a room and I over what I did that wasn't exactly my idea of a consequence I would've better off with talking to or something to that matter. I was not exactly happy about neither my actions or the consequences but I had to accept both at this point that's when I realize that well you kinda have to accept things as it is, your life can return to the Jerry Springer show again if you don't accept things and you can go insane!
That being said, that was you in my life, went down that tube that was about 15 or 10 years ago when I was still on my childhood home and dealing with toxic stress that being said, that was the only time was, is my boyfriend, not being at basketball, and I am pretty sure he's going to be an ex if he finds out that I busted his locket, that was not exactly a smart move on my part but as I said to avoid your life being like the Steve Wilkos or the Jerry Springer show, you have to accept things as presented to you that's about it you can't fight it sometimes!
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The girl who is the full moon |memoir 2| complete
Документальная прозаMy memoir sequel of "the girl who should've been left at airport security!" This will talk about my life at present, my goals and aspirations as well some more positive out look on life! Though the thirty five years were rough, let's see if I ca...
