(a/n: complete the lyric)
Yeonjun POV
I locked myself in my room and sat at the table, unlocking one of the drawers. I opened one of the books, my diary.
I had started to write my feelings in a book or paper when she left, finding no one else to tell to.
I would jot down words in paper when I was angry, sad, confused, anything.
Only to throw them later, burn them, so no one can read it.I had completed 2 books in these 4 years...
And the random pages seperate.I was halfway through the 3rd book.
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SaturdayWe went to the memorial.
I saw Minji.She was all sad. I wanted to apologise, I wanted to hug her, take away all her pain but I couldn't.
I couldn't do anything.
And I was to blame.Seeing her like this hurt but not being able to do anything hurt even worse.
Nevermind, I take that back, you know what hurts worse? Seeing her smile because of someone else.
Who was that guy?
Did she know him?
The fuck??!
A part of me is mad for being jealous because all that matters now is that atleast someone made her smile, but I can't help it.
They were together the whole time. Talking. Laughing.
It should've been me.
Not him.
Me.But then again, I was to blame.
Just me.
I had always been the problem.
It's always me.I confessed at the wrong time.
I got mad at her for leaving without even letting her explain her part.
I caused all this mess.And it's me who messed with my feelings, even.
It was never Karina who wrote any of those letters, it was Minji.
And I didn't even know it.^•^
I closed the book and laid down on my bed.
My head still occupied with the thoughts I tried to give up.
.ִֶָ 𓂃˖˳·˖ ִֶָ ⋆★⋆ ִֶָ˖·˳˖𓂃 ִֶָ.
I completed reading Verity after my friend recommended it, I am not functioning anymore...Am I alright? I don't know
Did I lose a sense of right and wrong? Most probably....~Yoo❤️
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[ON HOLD] •My Guiding Light• ||Yeonjun||
Fanfiction"You see the moon? You are my moon!" • "You see the stars? You are my stars!" ||STARRING|| Kang Minji Choi Yeonjun