Fuck I'm in love

i'm losing you

5th month

It's the fifth month since Wednesday has been in a coma, Enid started losing hope as the time passed, but the slight chance that she wakes up is still there, she just couldn't believe that her lover is in a coma because of a stupid accident, she didn't know what to do,

 her days faded into each other, wake up, go to classes visit Wednesday in the hospital, she wished that one day she's going to response to her and everything goes back the way it was, she was sitting on the chair next to Wednesday

"Oh baby I wish that you wake up someday soon, I miss you badly Babycakes" Enid said while she let tears fall from her eyes, she knew how much Wednesday hated that nickname, but Wednesday secretly loved it, she put her hands over her face covering it while she cried

6th month

Enid was talking with yoko and Bianca at lunch "so who do you think is hotter ajax or Xavier? I know they are gay but still" yoko asked while she looked at the two girls "I would say Xavier" the siren responded, they looked at Enid who was just looking at her food in front of her lost in her thoughts

"Hello? Earth to Enid?" Bianca said and waved her hand in front the blonde girl "sorry I'm just thinking"

The two girls looked at eachother they both knew why Enid was like this
"Enid look you need to let her go, she's probably never going to wake up" the vampire said and held Enids hand

"I am not accepting that, she's going to wake up, I know she will" she said trying to hold herself together and not to start crying in front of everyone, even if they would understand she would still feel ashamed about it
"You can't be sure Enid, she had a very bad head Injury, theres a big chance that she's never waking up"

 Bianca said and looked into Enid eyes, it's hard to hear but what they were saying is true Wednesday may not wake up ever again, after lunch she went to the hospital and told Wednesday about her day "yoko and Bianca said that your not going to wake up again, but I don't believe that I know that you will wake up babycakes, I just know it" the she-wolf said while she held her hand tight

"You look so peaceful baby, like your just sleeping, I love you so much please just come back to me" she whispered and kissed Wednesday on her cheek, she let her hand go and walked out she stopped at the door to look back at her, but nothing has changed she's still in the same position not moving anything

 she's just laying there, Enid took a deep breath and left closing the door behind her, while she walked back to nevermore she cried the whole way back, since Wednesday is in a coma she's lost so much weight, she couldn't eat how much she wanted she couldn't, Enid didn't felt hungry at all, she looked like skin and bones nothing else, 

when she got to nevermore quickly wiped her tears away and walked inside, and straight to her dorm where she continued crying while she cleaned the room, she went to take a shower she striped down and looked into the mirror, her ribs where showing, so does her hips
They could cut glass with her collarbones, she was disgusting about herself, she stepped into the shower

The water was hot it burned her skin and made it red, but she didn't care she felt the warmth on her skin, she washed herself, and got out of the shower, and walked back to the bedroom, she stopped to look around everything just looks so lonely and empty with her lover

7th month

Seven months and still nothing, Enid was really losing her little hope she had, she got even skinnier everyone looked at her weird, but she just couldn't care about it anymore, actually she didn't care about anything anymore

 she just existed and that was all she barley talked to her friends, she cut contact with everyone she knew when people try to talk to her she just gets up and leaves she still goes to the hospital to check on Wednesday, but she knew doesn't matter how much she goes there it won't bring back her lover, Enid started skipping classes, days and just layed in bed all day she barley left the room if she did the only reason was to go and see Wednesday in the hospital, but other than that sometimes she went to class, she didn't bothered to do anything more she didn't have the energy to do so

Enid got to that point where she couldn't cry anymore she wanted to but no tears came out, she felt nothing, the numbness was killing her from the inside, but she didn't care she didn't care about anything, Enid was laying in bed when she heard her phone ringing she looked over and saw it was yoko she hung up the phone and put it into silent mode rolled to her other side and she just fell asleep like she usually does these days, she started going less to the hospital she couldn't find a reason to do so, she's not going to wake up Enid lost her hope, she accepted the sad truth Wednesday will not wake up