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26.: Mystery

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╰┈➤ ❝ [POV Yu'kiya] ❞ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-

IT WAS ODD to have the sea right infront of your doorstep. No matter how beautiful it was or how much I wished to be here when I was a child, everytime I looked out of the hut I realzied - it wasn't home. I missed my other friends already. I missed climbing trees and flying through the sky together with Neteyam and our families. I missed the feeling of exploring the battlefield together with Lo'ak and going on rades with the tribe.

It is so beautiful here and yes, I did feel comfortable, it was part of my origins and in some kind of way it was my home but... I never thought I would miss the forest and the Omatikaya tribe so much. I haven't even made good experience with most of the people my age when I was a child.

While the other children in the forest bullied me for my fins and my reef Navi features, the people here never mentioned any of my diffrences. Ronal even said we would fit more in than the Sullys or my relatives. I took that as a compliment. It let me feel usefull and worthy.

"Scary, isn't it?" Aylara said, squating down next to me at the Marui entrence. She finished moving into her room with her mate. "That all of this feels so familiar and comfy but odd and foreign at the same time..." she added, I nodded in agreement. She was right. It was indeed scary.

"What if we don't want to go back in the end?" I asked her. Yeah what if? We don't know how it will look like in the next months. She shrugged her shoulders. "I think that has to be discussed with our mates. In my case it probably would be easier to stay but you..." she made a pause.

"You are mated to our next Olo'eyktan..." I sighed. I really wished I want to go home after these months. Neteyam put so much training and effort into beeing the next Olo'eyktan, it would be unfair if this would destroy all his efforts. Besides... would our child be built for the life in the sea? We would have to have much luck that my grandmothers genes would show once more. It is a miricle that me and my siblings all have visible fins.

"Do you want to stay here?" Aylara asked. I shook my head. "No." My hand moved to my belly and I looked down. "But we can visit in case we make friends here..." I smiled. Maybe the pregnancy isn't that bad... I'm kinda getting excited to have my own child. But I'm still scared.

What if I fail as a mother?

I could never forgive myself for that. For letting my child feel unworthy just because I am to feckless to be a mother.

"Hey..." Aylara layed her Hand on mine, which was resting on my thigh. "It will be okay. I know it is scary becoming a mother. 'Yamur was too... but you will manage it." I nodded, she was right, I'll manage it.