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The world is all fuzzy as it usually is when I'm little. I look around and see Donny and Noxxy looking confused at Master, making me confused. Then I remember they're trying to take me to the bad place.

"Nooooo, please, nooo. Don make me go," I cry out to Master holding me closer trying to get me calm. I cuddle closer to him, he feels very cosy. I stay quiet for a minute before my pants suddenly begin to feel wet. My eyes instantly water again.

"I sowwy, I no mean to," tears come pouring out of my face as I push Master away, he can't get dirty. "It's okay Ellie, just give me a minute and we'll get you all tidied up. Ok princess?" Master says to me, I nod but continue crying.

Noxxy and Donny appear in front of me making the haze clear a little, as soon as I blink I remember everything and jump up, Master Raine catching me before I could fall. No they weren't meant to know me being princess could've been anything but me wetting myself. Now they know. I turn to Master Raine.

"Hospital please, now please," I say to him wanting to run away but the weakness and pain stops me. "Wait, wait, wait, as much as we desperately want to know this whole dynamic we are going to forget this for a moment and we are going with you, Otherwise your treatment could be done incorrectly," Don says calmly to me.

I nod reluctantly knowing it would be best if he came with me. "First, we'll find you some pants to throw on," Master tells me before leaving the room with Don. Nox sits beside me silently for a minute before holding my hand.

"We aren't judging you I promise," he tells me sincerely. "I'm not embarrassed..... I just ..... I am my true self in the club and you met me when I wasn't being my true self, I didn't want you to think I was a liar about who I am, so I didn't want to tell you," I explain, not really making sense but not wanting the men to be mad at me. He nods, staying quiet for a moment.

"Are you a little?" he asks me after a moment or two of silence. "Not really. Well, no, I am. But not only a little? I discovered I like little space to decompress and such so I use it as a way to relax I guess, but I do not sexualise it. I completely regress so I don't do it in a sexual way. I am into alot of other things but little space, I've been slipping into it alot recently, it has also made me comfortable with using diapers which is good I suppose," I tell him making him look at me confused.

"Not that its really my business but why does it matter if your are comfortable using diapers?" he asks me after a moment. "I used to get stress incontinence in the night time, but the doctor at the time said judging by something he wouldn't be surprised if I was back in diapers full time by my mid thirties. Since then I just sort of took it as a guaranteed basically. Kinda like the feeding tube, logically with my history am I ever going to get rid of it. Or am I even going to be allowed out of the hospital or are they going to put me in the psych ward and then a hospice where I just die slowly," I start rambling telling him my fears not even realising it.

"Ok lets rewind a little, I can get Don to look you over and see if there will be any major concerns indicating incontinence in the future, even if there is you will have us there to help you. The feeding tube you are going to get rid of it eventually, we just need to get you back to a healthy weight and slwoly reintroduce you to food again so as not to cause stomach issues. You are definitely going to be able to leave the hospital and no one will put you in the psych ward unless you are a risk to yourself and even at that we will get you discharged into our care where we will look after you. Now please just take a deep breath and think slowly, stop trying to focus on these hundreds of thoughts that are zooming through your brain and just focus on one. Catch it and focus on it, then let it go, keep doing that until you fee calmer," he instructs me, I nod along, listening to him and calming down slowly.

"How is Ren?" I ask after a minute of silence. "Fuck, you are E meaning you are his new sub meaning you are the person who is MIA for him. I thought he had two people MIA not just you, though it makes sense now. He text me just before you arrived saying you emailed in your notice. He is really worried about you, can you contact him once you are all settled in the hospital getting patched up?" he asks me slowly putting the dots together.

"Yeah sure," I answer, the door opens then and Master Raine and Don arrive back in. "Sorry we took so long, you are an awkward size apparently meaning finding trousers was more work than planned. We couldn't find any boxers though so you have the option of pull-up, diaper, or just going without," he tells me as he walks into the room.

I look to Master Raine for guidance who just shrugs. "If you think this is going to be a stressful situation where you will automatically regress to protect yourself I would recommend the diaper if I am being honest with you El," he says after a moment. I think for a moment before nodding.

"Hospitals trigger me, I should go for the diaper," I say and they all nod accepting it. "Do you need help changing?" Nox asks, making me look at my hands and nod reluctantly, I can barely use them let alone use them to change my clothes.

"Okay lets get you ready and then head off to get you all sorted," he says with a small smile.

Howdy m'loves,

Hope y'all are well, I am lowkey dying as usual but whats new.

Hope y'all like this new chapter.

Much love,

Boo xx