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We Need To Talk

My head whips over to the door and I take in the man standing there. He looks a mess, I did that. He pastes a fake smile on his face walking into the room but staying near the door. "How are you?" he asks hesitantly, everyone else stands up and leaves the room, the two of us left alone. "I'm sorry," I respond hesitantly, not wanting to answer the question.

He sighs before sitting on a chair at the end of the bed, putting his head in his hands then looking up at me again. "Please just..... I don't even know. Are.... you look like death," he finally decides to say.

"Not going to lie, I feel like death too. It was my own doing though," I let my voice fade off at the end. I had been the one to neglect my own health and act so stupidly.

"It wasn't, your injuries didn't come from no where. Can you please tell me what happened? I know you wouldn't just cease contact and quit your job, which I know you love, for no reason, please just tell me," Ren starts sounding more desperate nearing the end.

Avoiding his eyes I look up to the ceiling, telling him will not result in any good. I was kind of hoping he would come here angry and that he wouldn't forgive me and just leave. Seeing him so ....... dejected is not what I expected. Torn between wanting him to forgive me and wanting him to leave me so I don't have to face him after ditching him.

"I got attacked, that is all you need to know. I got attacked and decided I couldn't do this, I am too much work for you. We need to dissolve our relationship," I stumble out, looking at him for a moment before returning my gaze to the ceiling.

"No, thats not all I need to know. I really care about you but it is taking a lot of effort to not be mad right now. I know you definitely had a reason because you are not the type of person to just drop someone for no reason," he tells me, coming to move beside me.

"I don't want to cause trouble," I sigh out. "You aren't causing trouble, please just tell me," I can see Ren getting more and more concerned by the second. I wish my hands were free at the moment so I could hide myself under my blanket, I glance at the clock on the wall seeing we don't have much time before I will be getting prepped for the surgery.

"Promise me you won't get mad," I mutter after another moment of silence. "I will try not to get mad, I just want to be able to help you can you please just fill me in on everything," he replies.

"Nora, she knocked me out of my chair and used it to attack me. I went home and hid instead of getting treatment and let myself get unhealthy and worse because I was so embarrassed. Then Master Raine showed up and I told him everything and he took me to Don and then Don and Nox discovered who I was because I wet myself and was little. Then we came here and I have to get surgery because my hands are completely fucked," I blurt out super fast, knowing that if I stop I wouldn't tell him everything.

"Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I am sorry you had to go through that all alone. We do need to talk about this in the future though. I will be here with you all the way through the recovery from everything. Okay?" he kisses my cheek, and I blush a little.

"I'm sorry, I.... I just have trouble relying on people, most of the people in my life have not allowed me to rely on them, but then I come here and most of the people I meet are reliable but I'm not used to it so I don't know how to do that," I ramble on not knowing how to explain that I have issues without going into my countless family issues.

Before he can reply theres a knock on the door. Nox and Don walk in and smile at us before the Doctor follow him in.

"I'm sorry to disturb you, but we need to get you all prepped for the surgery. The nurses will come in in a moment to help, and then we will take you down to the OR. Your friends can either wait for you in your room or go home and come back in a few hours, you will be out for at least the next 10 hours," Dr Fox explains.

"Ok we will leave you to it then. Sweet, we will be back before you wake up. If you want to give us your keys we can grab you some clothes and such?" Ren offers gesturing to Master Raine, Don and Nox.

"I'd appreciate that, thank you," I reply, smiling softly. They nod and head out of the room, leaving me alone with the Doctors. "So Elliot we just want to confirm, do you have someone who can go home with you after the surgery?" Dr Fox asks.

"Yes, Ren has offered to stay with me. I think him and the others are going to like switch out of something," I answer, watching as the door opens and nurses come in. "Ok Elliot, lets get ready for this ok?" one of the nurses say smiling at me. I nod gently, trying to squish the fear of being put under.

I stay silent as they describe the process that will take place when I'm asleep. I try to block it out, not wanting to know what will happen. Knowing it will only make the anxiety worse. "How long will the healing process will be again?" I ask, trying to be distracted.

"4 weeks in the cast, then physical therapy for a few weeks. Once you keep actively doing the physical therapy you shouold be back up and running in approximately six months maximum. Your other issues may slow it down a bit but you just need to be consistent. Samr with your feeds, keep those up and we can try work your stomach back up to maybe trying some solid foods. We are going to work on getting to as good shape as we can and try work on keeping it level but knowing what to do when it begins to drop," Dr Fox explains and I nod trying to take in all the details.

"Ok lets go," a nurse tells me before someone comes and starts pushing my bed out of the room. I watch quietly as I'm pushed through the hallways, trying to ignore the impending doom thats settling in my stomach. Before I know it I'm being transferred to the bed in the OR, and being told to count backwards from ten.