Dark Lover

13.Bright - Why

It was a long day. I know one day, phi foei will beat sarawat for real. I know he mean good, but since we just a small cafe, we cant cater to all his fans demand. That's mean extra jobs for us. 

I look at phi mile who walk to guest room. Quietly.  He dont say a word. It's very strange but I am too tired to think about unwanted guest next room.
It felt like heaven when I finally lay down getting ready to sleep. I try to ignore phi mile but I cant help to think about his attitude today.  Deep down I felt grateful. But I need to guide my heart harder. He is charming guy, everyone will fall for him. I can see how my customer today look at him with love eyes. Sleep bright, dont fall for his trap, I scold myself.

I look at phi mile who are queitly work at my cafe. I know it's hard for him and his staff but he stubbornly come here everyday.  I need to go now baby, I wont be here tomorrow , I need to visit our branch at USA he said while caressing my hair. I gently push his hand. I just look at him. USA, my heart can't stop beating hard. Its where his fiance family live. I cant help but felt hurt. You are stupid bright,  you are no body, I scold myself. Can I hug you, he ask me. I glare at him. He just chukle and caress my face again. See you,  he said . I really cant response.  I am scare that my voice will betray me. I only can look how phi mile and his team leave my cafe. Stop it bright, I said slowly and start make my self busy with baking. Will it end just like this.

It's already 2 weeks. I try to pretend everything is alright but i can't help but continue to prepare his breakfast everyday. So it's already end. I know he will forget about me when he see his fiance. I am glad that I pretend to be strong before. There is no way, unknown person like me accepted in his family. I know I will only be his dark lover if I get involved with him again. I know I can be replaced by anyone.

Help me, phi mile suddenly get into my room and hug me. What are you doing, I ask him loudly. Please , he beg me. Now I am getting worry.  What wrong, I ask. I look at sweating phi mile. Are you okay phi, I ask me. Help me, he said.with shaking voice and body.  I quickly let him sit on my bed. I Try to call his personal assistant but he hold my hand tight. I wont go away, wait for a second, I said but phi mile have different thought, he start undress himself. Phi, I call him. He look so red. Are you okay, I ask him. I am sorry he said and suddenly pull me hard. Please he beg and start kissing. Is he under drug influence. I try to stop him, but like always I will never succeed. 

It's already afternoon when I wakeup. I slowly moaning because of the pain. I slowly open my eyes and look at phi mile guilty face. From his look, I know he is blaming himself.  He quickly help me when I try to move. I am sorry , he said slowly.  I look at guilty face who are rough monster last night. I cant believe even he is under drug influence, I still cant knocked him down. Suddenly I felt shame and blushing remembering the way he do me last night. Even being his dark lover for years, I still don't know how to react after our intimate moment. Last night, at first he force himself on me, but later on, I know I enjoy his roughness and demand. I look at my bed which full of our fluid. Since both of us fainted , we sleep without cleaning.  This is never happen before. He make sure to clean up after our intimate moment. This make me embarrassed.

What happen, I ask him before our late lunch.  He look guilty.  I am sorry, I really need help last night.  I never intent to force you again. I just can't touch someone else. I cant, he reply.  I look at him and try to understand.  My ex fiance drug me, because she want to trap me into relation again. Luckily we already here, my assistant manage to help me . I dont know wether to scold or thank him when he bring me to you in that situation he said slowly.  I am sorry, I hurt you again he said regretfully.
I am hurt, but my Heart felt light. I am glad he come to me. I cant imagine what will happen if he find someone else. Ex fiance from his mouth really make me fluster. I am sorry, I never mean to lie, I thought I can handle it in one day,  but It was tough war he said. I still keep silent and don't respond to him. Please say something he said. I need my cloth, I said with blushing face. No you don't he said with naughty eyes. You look like baby, he said teasing me. No baby will have all his body marked, I said angrily. I know him too much. He maybe regret his action last night, but that don't make him change overnight. I know he love it so much when I am in this condition.  He purposely make me naked in bathrobe.  I hate it when he always take advantage of me when I am in this condition.  Not that baby, but my baby he said and lift me on his laps. I look at him when he getting hard. No, I said firmly. But like always he make me do things.  I hate and love it at the same time.  I hate you, I said when I rest in his chest after force to ride him. He dont even pull out from me and just chuckle.
But why I am not that angry.