Dark Lover

1.Bright - I am really thankful

I look at the cheque and house master title leave beside my phone. Cheque with 20M value and a luxury mansion that I dont even know the value. Its too much. He always give me the allowance every month but not this much. Its already 5 years, I quickly leave his bed and refresh myself. When I get out from his bathroom, he already come back and casually pull me. Are you okay he ask me. I just nod and smile. Its like a sitcom when he always treat me roughly at night and worry about me in the morning. What that all about , I ask him.  I told you, I 'll give you everything if you listen to me he said and caress my face. I look at him and slowly said. Its too much I said. I'll give you more, just be obedient and listen to me he said. I need to get ready, I have a meeting  he said before leave me and get into his walk in cabinets. 

I quickly check my phone, I know my staff will worry because I am late today.
Oh, I said when I see the news of him getting engage with one of the heiress.
So he still want to keep me in secret even he will startting his own family. So that the price to be his dark lover. 
This is not a life that I ever want or Imagine. I prefer sleep on the road instead of being someone secret dark lover and what make it worst is, I am kept by a man. I dont even care about his money, I am waiting patiently for him to get bored of me and leave me alone. I am waiting for the day he left me and I can live freely like a bird. My only rules in this relation is, he need to let me go if he start a family and I dont want to be a 3rd party.  I am in this relation because of my grandma and I dont know how he come into my life. I never know him, until he come to offer his help to pay for my grandma medication but I need to become his dark lover. I am not even gay at the first place and I am masculine guy. He treat me like his worker when he bring me to everywhere. No one know about our relation except for his close friend. When he force me for the first time, I felt like a loser and wish to die. But I am holding myself because of my grandma. But even my grandma already pass away,  he still refuse to let me go and force me in this relation.

I cant accept this, I said calmly. He now look at me. What do you mean he ask me quickly.  I told you before, we will end this relation if you start a family , I said calmly again. How much do you want, he ask me. Tell me your price he said coldly. I am sorry, I wont be third party I said. I lost my parent because of third party. I wont be  one , I said firmly.
So, you will find new lover who are single and serve them like you serve me he ask me coldly and hold my chin. Maybe, I reply and he hold me tighter.  Its hurt, but I won't let him know. You will regret this he said and leave me alone.  I take a deep breath and sit on his bed. I dont need anyone. I can work and willing to starve than serving another man. I will consider this my darkest secret. I have enough money from this last 5 years relation. I am not like other dark lover who enjoy luxury.  I secretly open a cafe since last year. I ask my trusted friend to run it for me. Even it just a small cafe,  I know I wont be starving and can lead a clean life. I never enjoy the luxury he give.  I carefully put the lamborghini keys beside the cheque.  I dont need this, what I want is my freedom. I also already repair and renovate our old house. Now it look so beautiful and ready to accupied.  I will have a very humble life  but this is what I want . I never imagine how he never bored of me all this years. There is not much I can bring from this penthouse.  So I quietly call the grab and go back to my house. 

This is more than enough. I just need to find a SUV and I am ready for my new life. A very calm and genuine life. A life that I can be myself.  I am only 18 years old when he come into my life. I am in desprate situation. I really need money for my grandma medication.  When he come and offer his help, I cant help but to accept his offer. I am killing myself slowly and destroyed my pride. Most of the people will lost in all luxury,  but luxury is not something I look for. My grandma and i always live humbly.  We are happy even we don't have much. I leave my college because he hate to see me with my friends and make me study online. I lost all my friends in the process to become his dark lover. The only thing he can't get from me is my heart. I try my best to guard my heart because I know,  one day he will leave me and throw me away like rubbish. 
I am thankful for my older friend name foei. He is good senior to me. He never ask but I think he understands my situation. So when I ask for help last year, he happily agreed and both of us become partner.  It just small cafe but it full of my dream and hope.

Help me, phi foei shout when he see me. I quickly help him to bring the bean bag to our cafe. Hi, everyone I greet our 4 workers. Morning boss, they reply cheerfully.  I just rolls my eyes and go into my office to change my cloth.
After a very humble artist post how he love our coffee and pastry,  we become a bit popular and gain so much customer. I am really thankful .

10.06.24