RESTORED DYING LOVE!

Chapter 13 . CONFESSION.

"You're not picking my calls nor replying to any of my messages neither !" She says closing the door coming towards me.

Oh no , she seems to be in a very bad mood and it's gonna be hard to convince her with  any lie right now , from how I've known her now. Am tensing inside but pretending to be tough outside.

And so is she , she's so serious that I can barely be convinced that it's her , she hasn't stopped moving , but still coming towards me , just how close does she want to be with me ?! My heart is drumming now .

" What are you doing here ? You know you are not supposed to be here , you know what your mom will..." I had just mastered the courage to speak and she has taken that away by cutting off my words.

" I don't care if she finds out and what she'll do ! I asked you something,, why are you not picking up my calls ?" She's now about to break down , she looks so defeated and heart broken and I can't help wanting to hold her so tight in my arms .

" I was not with my phone , I was busy.. Okay ! Okay! stop there you don't have to come any closer , I can hear you just fine from there  ! "

" why ? I mean why cant I come closer to you ? I want to , so why cant I? " Jesus ! This is getting out of hand and I need to think of something.  Disapointedly  my brain is so numb and isn't working right now , she keeps walking towards me and I have no choice but move backwards .

" Harper come back to your senses , what you're talking doesn't make any sense and what you're doi..." she cuts me again.

" What am talking doesn't make any sense  ?! Well , maybe I should make it more clear, by that then maybe it will make sense . " she says still walking.

" Can you stop moving Goddamnit!!" I say still nervous and moving backwards.

" If you stop moving, I'll stop but if you keep moving I'll keep moving too !" She says.

Where the heck is she getting the courage to look me in the eye and say that confidently. She has always blushed, shying away since I went back after that incident with her mother , I've never seen her this confident!

Where is she getting the courage to follow me like this ? Wanting to be so close to me , I mean I should be the one doing the following not her .

She's really tempting me and I doubt if I'll have any control over my feelings once I let them loose .

" No, you stop then I'll stop." I say hoping that she listens but that doesn't happen.
" No , you go first !" She argues, suddenly my back hit something so hard and I can tell that it's a wall . A wall that separates the kitchen with the living room .

I can't help my nervousness no matter how much I tell myself that am a man and I shouldn't be running away from a woman !

I stand there without any word coming out of my mouth , my back is still leaning on the wall , I need it for support before I pass out !

She keeps moving and now she's just few meters away from me . ' let what wish to happen , happen , I don't care what follows ' I tell myself.

" Let me come close to you , will you ? Let me feel you.. please  , I've wanted that for a long time and you know it , I know you know that I love you so very much and everytime I wanted to confess my feelings to you, you always brushed me off . It hurts me so much but I had no choice but to accept the reality, I also feared my mom , what she would do to you so I decided to stay away from you but I couldn't. I've been trying so hard , I've been hurting so much , but don't you think it's enough already? I can't take it anymore , all I want is you , if they are not gonna accept it  then   am ready to run away with you . Theo I really love you , I really want and need you , please accept me !! If you want me to beg so be it , I'll beg on my knees , please love me back ... "

I can't.. I cant handle it , I can't handle my emotions, she's sobbing and am standing there like a zombie not knowing what to do or say . Someone save me please , I haven't made up my mind and I don't know what to say in return . But one thing is for sure , I can't be with her , I can't run away with her because I would be just calling my death . 'God help meeee!!' I scream inside..

"Say something , please.." she whispers still sobbing.
" Harper, I cant !" Finally some words find the my mouth.
" You can't what ? Cant love me ? "
" No , I don't mean that . "
" Then what do you mean ?"

" I don't know , everything.. I cant everything.  "

" I don't understand you. " she whispers  breaking down even more.