Heart's Desire

Chapter 34

A/N: I don't know if this will trigger anyone, but I will put a graphic warning as there are written depictions of child birth.

"Deep breaths, Y/N. Deep breaths," Odessa said as I held onto her hand tightly.

They moved me from the bathing area and into the small tub that was in mine and Odessa's room. The pain wasn't subsiding. It was only growing. More blood came from me down there and whenever I pushed, all that came was blood. The woman who helped my mother deliver was here with us. Even she had a concerned look on her face with the amount of blood there was. I understood it was going to be bloody, but not like this. My breathing became heavy and uneven at times when I wasn't pushing.

"Do you feel the baby moving?" the woman asked.

"N-Not really. I-It's nothing but pain. I can't even feel anything down there."

"Meaning you can't feel this," the woman applied pressure to me down there.

"Nothing."

"Shit," the woman said and stood up.

"W-What's wrong?" Odessa asked.

"If she can't feel anything down there, that's not good."

"Well no shit," Odessa said.

"Easy, Odessa," my mother said.

"It means if she pushes any harder and all that is coming out is blood, she is putting herself at risk. Tell her to stop pushing for now and to just relax. I'll be back."

"W-Where are you going?" Odessa asked.

"I need to get a few things that might help," the woman said and left.

"Dez," I turned to face her.

"I got you," she said, cradling my head. "I'm not going anywhere, babe."

I clutched onto her hand tightly as she raised it up to her face, pressing a kiss to my knuckles.

"I won't let anything happen to you or the baby. I promise."

I nodded my head, "I love you, Odessa."

"I love you, too," she pressed a few kisses to my face. "I love you."

We sat around for a bit, waiting for this woman to return. The pain was plateauing, but there would be times where it spiked and it caused me to push involuntarily, more blood seeping out.

"Shit, Y/N," Odessa said, watching as the water turned a deep red. "We need to change out the water."

"Get her up. I'll go get it washed out," my mother said.

"Alright, I'm going to move you, Y/N."

I wrapped my arms around her body as her arms dipped into the water, grabbing underneath my legs.

"One...two...three...," she slowly lifted me up and the pain got worse.

I let out a yell as I tried to stop myself from pushing, but even if I restrained myself, my body refused to listen. Blood dripped down Odessa's arm as she lifted me up.

"I got her," she told my mother.

My mother grabbed the wooden tub and dragged it out of the room.

"Are you going to be ok holding her like that?" my mother asked.

"Is there a better position?" Odessa asked.

"Have her sit on your lap."

The door closed and Odessa sat down on the edge of the bed. She placed me on her lap and the pain calmed down for now. I took in deep breaths as I leaned forward, placing my hands on my stomach.