Those beautiful teal eyes [Genmui]

Hating this life-Chapter 25

Tw:mention of running away, panic attacks, abuse, self harm, arguing

Third person pov

Genya heard a knock on his window, he went over and opened the window for Aoi, he helped her up in his room "you could've knocked quieter" Genya whispered, trying not to laugh "before I forget, I brought you something to ease your muscles".

"How do you know my muscles hurt?" Genya asked with curiosity, he never mentioned in the call his muscles were hurting "because when a human as a panic attack the muscle hurt since they were contracted too much, so it was obvious your muscles hurt".

Genya understood only the last few words Aoi said to him, but he nodded anyways and sat on his bed "so what do you wanna do?" Aoi said as she sat next to him, despite being friends for a long time, Genya never invited Aoi over because of his dad.

"You mentioned in the call that you had an argument with your brother Sanemi" Aoi started to speak, a tone of sadness filling her voice "do you perhaps want to talk about it? I completely understand if you don't want to".

Genya thought for a second about it, especially since it had been some time since they talked like this "I don't want to throw my problems on your shoulders" Genya felt guilty "if my brother is an asshole that doesn't believe me, then that is on me".

"Still, you can't handle too much stress on you, your brain is still developing and since you're in your teenage years everything can mark you forever, especially a bad home life since you were a kid" Aoi grabbed Genya by his shoulders.

"I'm trying to tell you that you have to talk about it, I know it can be really, really, hard to open up, but it's dangerous if you keep everything to yourself" Aoi paused herself to take a deep breath "are you understanding what I'm saying, Genya?".

Genya slowly nodded, he took a deep breath and started telling Aoi everything that happened, from drugging his father to his panic attack, Aoi didn't interrupt him, she kept listening, she was glad that Genya was opening up to her.

Genya stopped talking as he finished the story, he felt like throwing up "wait I need to use the bathroom" Genya quickly got up and went to the bathroom, Aoi waited for Genya on his bed, knowing that no one would even bother enter.

Genya closed the door of the bathroom and threw up in the toilet, it felt like he just got a weight off his stomach, but he kept throwing up like 6 times, his chest felt weak and his heart was beating fast, he laid on the ground and took some deep breaths.

His eyes landed on the razor blades that Sanemi was supposed to be changing and throw out, he felt the urge, and he just couldn't resist, he got up and locked the bathroom door, he took off his hoodie and took the blades, he made a single cut on his arm, he felt alive for a moment.

He continued to cut on his arm until he felt a knock on the door, he dropped the razor in a panic and it made lot of noise "Genya is everything okay there? I've hear you throw up a little too much" Sanemi asked worried from the closed door.

Genya quickly throw the blade in the trash cad and put his hoodie back on so it covered his forearm, he opened the door and acted as if nothing wrong had happened "no I'm fine, i just felt a little sick, I'm all right now, there's no need to worry" Genya said, faking a smile.

"Are you sure?" Sanemi was worried, but to Genya it felt like his brother was angry "yeah I'm sure, i'll go back to my room now" he said, quickly getting out of the bathroom, Sanemi saw the blades and went over to throw them out, but one was missing.

"What the..." Sanemi whispered as he took a look at the trash can and saw the third blade "there it is" Sanemi said as he grabbed, he only realised in that moment it had some blood "these were clean a few moments ago, could it be that Genya..." Sanemi paused for a moment, could Genya even be capable of doing something like that?