i came home and was greeted by my house-mate brianna, who was startled because she walking up the stairs and didn't expect anyone busting through the house door.
"hey bri." i laughed. she fell onto one of the steps with her hand held up to her chest, gasping for air.
"holy fuck anna. you nearly killed me!" she exclaimed. god, she was so delicate. brianna collected herself and got back on her feet. "how was school?" she asked.
i groaned while walking to the kitchen, she followed behind, "remember luke?"
"hemmings? that asshole that treated you like shit and left you?" she said with anger and furrowed her eyebrows. i sadly nodded and remembered the big argument luke and i had that ended everything and my hatred for him started.
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"why are you being such a dick?" i huffed. he laughed dryly, and turned away from me for a second.
"maybe i don't like it when bitches come into my house and start accusing me of being an asshole!" luke spat. i was outraged. i came over to confront luke and ask him whats been going on with him lately, and he blew up at me. that's when the calm conversation turned into a heated argument.
"i'm not accusing you of being an asshole luke, you are an asshole. ever since you came back home you've been nothing but a complete twat." i retorted. "i thought, you know maybe he needed some time to cool off from whatever pissed him off," i shrugged,"but its been weeks and i came here to talk about it but you got all defensive!" i yelled.
"you don't know shit anna, and you don't fucking need to know what happened." he said.
"well what the fuck am i supposed to do? let you be an assface all the time we hang out and let you walk all over me? i just wanted to help and let you know that i'm fucking here if you needed anyone but you won't accept my offer for the first time in forever." i explained, getting tired of arguing and sat down on the white couch in his apartment.
he laughed again, "i don't need you, you psychotic bitch. you really don't get it. none of you do. not you, ashton, or michael. i can do fine just being by myself, you aren't any help in my life." we stared at eachother intensely. my heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach and my throat felt like it was suffocating on its own. i was fighting back the tears through out the whole argument but one tear found its way to my cheek.
i got off of the couch and stood right in front of luke. i inhaled sharply and took one look at him. he was breathing heavily, his eyes were dull and he didn't look like luke anymore. his hair was messed up and his face was red. luke wasn't luke, i kept replaying that in my mind. he never acts the same anymore, he never looks the same anymore. i was so hurt by his words, it's like i'm giving 110 percent and he's only giving me 5. my caring and love isn't appreciated by him anymore. luke doesn't need me, he doesn't need anyone.
"luke-"
"no, save it anna. just fucking go." he opened up the door that leads out of his apartment. i closed my eyes, fighting the battle between me and my tears. i slowly walked to the door, but stopped right in front of him to take one last look at my bestfriend that i've latched onto. the boy who used to bring me the best memories ever. the boy who's made me laugh numerous of times whenever i was so fucking sad. the boy who bought me my favorite ice cream whenever he came over to watch 'pretty little liars'. the boy who wiped my tears, and i wiped his. the boy who would always want to cuddle on rainy days. the boy who stuck up for me whenever a bitch tries to make me feel like shit. the boy who i helplessly fell in love with, all of his flaws, were his perfections to me. and i'm leaving it all behind because things always come to an end, and here we are, at our end. our final destination.
"goodbye luke," i breathed. he turned away from me because he knew it killed him inside just as much as it killed me.
i walked home in the rain, bawling my eyes out. all of the tears that i held in finally spilled out and i couldn't stop them this time. i haven't cried this hard in so long and i felt like i was losing it. i came home and brianna, malina, and kimberly all helped me fill up the empty spot in soul that luke once was in.
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i felt a pang in my chest just thinking about that memory. there's always going to be a soft spot in me for luke, but i built super thick walls around that tiny little spot.
i shook it off, "yeah that luke."
malina walked in right when i said that, "what about that assface?" she asked.
i huffed, "i have to tutor that dumbass." i answered.
"wait, didn't he used to be like really smart?" kimberly said while she walked in. now, we're all in the kitchen talking about that crap i was in.
"yeah, but like i said, he's changed." i commented.
"and now you have to see him on a daily basis?" brianna asked.
"uguhhhghhguhg YES!" i yelled frustrated with the whole situation of spending time with him. i laid my head down on the granite counter top. i started making growling noises while running my hands through my hair.
brianna, kimberly, and malina all exchanged looks and busted into laughter.
i love them and all, but this situation is really getting to me. but it's just like them to brighten up the mood, that kind of specialty makes living with them easier on me.
"guys seriously, tell me what i should do." i groaned.
"okay an, look. maybe this won't be that bad. just keep your feelings locked up, don't get attached. it's just simply you teaching a dumbass trigonometry. nothing less, nothing more." lina said while rubbing my back.
i lifted my head up, "i'm gonna go take a bath." i stomped up the stairs.
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(kimberly)
it's weird that anna is in a bad mood today. like, yes she's been in bad moods before but she usually cheers herself up and makes the whole bad atmosphere she created into something nice.
she's been in the bathtub for two hours, now she has the shower on. she thinks better in the shower but its been fucking two hours. anna usually brings in sunshine, and lina usually brings in the darkness.
anna usually is cheery and baking brownies while we enjoy her perky presence. brianna is way more perkier, but anna still has that quality. her maturity is something that keeps this whole house grounded and whenever she's in a slump, everybody is screwed. she's the whole soul of the house.
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i've been in the shower for two hours, god the girls are going to kill me for making the water bill so high. i just wish this thought would go away. i don't even get why it's bothering me so much. it's just like malina said, it's just me teaching a dumbass trig. that's all there is, so why the fuck do i keep thinking it's going to be something way more than that?
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helloooo, so i get that they're in highschool in this book but in college in "Runaways" but this is Anna's point of view and her whole story with luke. so yeah their story started in high school aight so don't get all crazy.
annnd, yes this book will fast forward when they are in college because they're seriously about to graduate and shit . plus i wanted to make it all connected in some way, there will be Kim's Point of View also, and Serenity's books soon. okok get off my back yo and plus my grammar should be excuse 99.9 percent of the time
