The Mistress's 1st Maknae.

7 Beginnings and Ends

So that happened.

It's been a week since you met her in the hotel. You have thought about it a lot. Worried that it would be all over the Internet by now. But no. She has a life too, and by selling her story, she wouldn't gain anything other than negative press and then hate.
It was fun and exciting and new. Giving her the control. Taking orders. That made it hotter. You wanted to see her happy, then flushed and then have her cum. Knowing it was because of how you were touching her. That she allowed you to touch her, lick her and be the cause of her climax. She did say she had a good time, her moans did sound genuine. she tasted divine.

Afterwards, you guys got dressed and spoke about meeting up again. You felt a sense of pride when she told you she liked how your fingers felt inside her. The way she talks, its like a meeting between the guys, "yeah this will work, no, this it wont blend well, we need to make it smoother". She said that next time, she would still take the lead, showing you how she likes it, "training you up". You had to stifle a giggle when she said training. You pictured her in your gym, with a red two piece gym set on, giving you a countdown as you thrusted in the mirror. You explained this to her, and she found it funny too.
What she meant was guidance, but you have been calling it training when you've thought about it. Guidance felt like you were an amateur. As if you hadn't been making the females in your bed cum for a long time. As is you didn't know where to put it and how to move it. She explained, "yes all women have the same parts, like a car, so the manual would be the same, however, each woman is a slightly different spec and needs to be treated differently in order to get the best out of them" But maybe she has a point. I can only get better. I was given the nickname Golden maknae for a reason.

You have messaged her on insta. At first you were shy again because you could still see her in your mind. The whole "no friends" thing is hard. She's really likeable and could be a good friend to have if you ever decided that the sex wasn't going to work out. When starting a conversation you have to keep reminding yourself of this. She seems cool. But you have noticed she's being distancing herself too. This is probably her way of keeping the boundaries clear. I guess it's part of the deal. Fucking not feeling.

Not one to talk about your sexy time with others, as this can lead to leaks and people overhearing, you do tell MG. Not what you did but how it went, the setup. How it wasn't someone the company had approved or even vetted. That there's no paperwork. No expectations or demands, well that's not entirely true, your new play mate has shown signs she can be very demanding. He doesn't judge, but does tell you to be careful. That "mould grows everywhere with the right environment."

The weather's changing again and so is the atmosphere at the company. There's a rush to get group work finished. Filming as a group is always fun. But it's full of chaos too, and laughter. Each episode you guys have filmed is always different.

It's the first few days of December, Jin Hyung's birthday, the eldest brother will be leaving soon. There's been a lot of talk about it, how the team will deal with any press. The company have said that you can all go and see him off. Your a little hesitant about this but your brothers have assured you they will be there with you.

With your own personal schedules on the horizon there is a lot of opportunity coming your way and you want to be ready so you can work well and enjoy it.

Its the day before Jin Hyung leaves.

Now it's becoming real. He won't be at the end of the phone to chat with. He won't be able to come around uninvited. Even finding you on the games server and joining the opposite team to mess your win streak up. The building is going to be a lot quieter without him. It's strange. He's only going to service. he's not dying.
Even though you both have hugely different personalities and roles within the group he's has been there with you for everything.
You've only ever experienced death close at hand once. One of your sunbeams passed away a few years back. It rocked the industry and the team. It was still early in your professional career, but it impacted you. It was seven years ago, but you decided then that you don't like instant change. If you could work towards a change in life instead of it just happening, you would rather that. The company have been talking about your mandatory service for a few years and its not new but its coming up fast and your brothers will disappear 'kind of'. With Jin Hyung going to service first and very soon, the feelings of loss and uncertainty are resurfacing. And it's making you feel anxious and giving you stress. Channelling these feelings, you head to the gym. Your trainer will kick your arse for a few hours, and hopefully, the uneasy feelings will leave.

They don't. Your brothers are there with you, they understand how your feeling and they reassure you with kind words and touches. You have to work hard to keep the sadness from rolling down your face. You decide to keep the face mask on and your hat low. Your not the only one who's going to miss him. He laughs and hides his own fears when he sees you. He has to set the example for the others. Plus the press and the fans are watching. He looks really different with his hair that short.

Your brother has been in basic training for 3 weeks, and although he's sent messages to the group chat, his call time is limited. There are other members that need him. You don't make a fuss. Then the guys might start back with the 'aw he's the baby, he needs more attention' shit. You're not a baby. Most of the time, it's a mix between "whoa Jungkook's so grown up or, he's the kid don't worry he will grow up and learn soon"

Lately, all you wanna do is sleep or train. There's some mould following you when you do go to train, and it's beginning to get on your nerves. Why can't they just leave me in my down time to do my own thing. Surly, I'm owed that. Thinking about your private time, it's been almost a month since you spent time with a female. Your time in the hotel with her springs to mind and your cock wakes up. Damn bro, I will get you someone to play with soon.
The year ends and starts again. Taking a break from your superstar life is needed.