The Mistress's 1st Maknae.

1. Start again?

It's the end of March, looking back over the last 7 months, how your life has changed. You left your dead-end relationship, found out you have a few kinks, and have helped a famous face find control. Yeah, this is your life. Gone are the days of sitting back and taking what a guy gives you. Fuck that shit, you now know and want more, from your everyday life. There's no going back, down the rabbit hole you fall, further. Its nice down here.

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It was the first week in September, when you called your boyfriend and told him you wouldn't be coming over, he thought you meant just that day, you were in a relationship going now where, un loved, unhappy, and very unsatisfied. The final thread holding your pitiful relationship together frayed and snapped. After a very wet and gloomy day, your office boss, at the time, dismissed the team and left for the week.

It was a Tuesday. There was nothing special about it.
Once out of the office, you made a call.

"Hi, Eun," you say to your then boyfriend. "I won't be coming over." He asks why and if he will see you the next day. "I'm not coming over because I don't want to. I don't think I will be back. I just don't feel the same anymore. To be honest, I don't think you do either. We have just grown apart. " He grumbles about how he won't find another girlfriend like you. But you cut him off, "you will, and she will be perfect for you. She will make sure you have everything, she will feed you, clean for you, and never ask for anything in return. Me! I want something exciting. You are giving all you can, but I just want more," he argues a little, but like your relationship, there's no real fire. "I don't have anything of importance at your place, so you can just bin any of my belongings. Bye"

That was it.
Over.
Done.

Your Flatmate was worried that you would be lonely and thought that after a few weeks you would go back to him. When she realised that you weren't missing him, Iseul decides that a night out will help with your sadness about the breakup. She doesn't get that you're not sad. You're actually feeling free and light for the first time in ages. Now your brain reminds you of how you met and befriended Iseul.

You had moved into a two bedroom apartment in Seoul, the other rooms occupant was Iseul. She worked for a sales and marketing company, and she was moving up. She didn't mind that you never stuck at a job, the rent was always paid and you could be there for her at a moments notice, to hang out, to go eat, even go with her to some retreats her company put on for staff development days and team building. Usually, the staff bring their partners, but once the staff got to know you, they looked forward to seeing you.

Iseul, even though she's the epitome of beauty, had great grades and academic qualities. She wasn't very engaging, personally. Since becoming her friend, she "has blossomed," her mother told you. Remembering one particular evening with her team, one of them got drunk and told you "I think Iseul may have been on the list of those getting fired, but that was before we met you, you bring out her fun side" shit, you thought, now I'm responsible for her too. A few weeks later, while having a roommate date, you told her. She begged you to help her be more approachable and amenable.
You replied, "I can't teach you, but I will be your friend and let you know if you're being weird." That was almost two years ago.

For you, now, it's not about being in a relationship or being in love or being loved. You love yourself, and that's all you have ever really wanted. You don't need validation from a man right now. Yeah, there are times when you want to cuddle on a Sunday morning, eat breakfast in bed and get fucked all ways, but right now, it's all about boundaries, sensations and trying new things.

Back to the night, you met Theo, the guy that opened your mind. It was on one of the blind dates Iseul was sending you on. Dressing you up and making you go sit in bars until the flavour of the week showed up. Usually, you would have one drink with them and leave. But it was time you gave one of them a try.
Theo, tall, muscly, tanned. He was visiting from Europe, you met him in a bar. Before going, you told yourself you would start a conversation with the guy she's set you up with and be open to getting to know them.
So when Theo sat next to you, "Hi, I'm going to wait here till my friend shows up." You thought this guy was rude, and he didn't even ask, He just told you. This isn't the kind of guy Iseul would pair you with.

'Keep and open mind, maybe she's decided against the stiff guys in suits',
"OK, if you must." Turning your head to look at the room. 'Talk to him, go on, what's the worst that can happen'
"Hey, did your friend say,... they would be here soon?" You ask.
He grins at you, not the most handsome face, but he's tall and athletic.
"OK, you caught me," he points his finger toward a table further into the bar, "My friends are already here, but I wanted to come say hi."
So he's trying to be smooth.
"Ah, you're on a fishing expedition, testing the waters, see who bites? I get it, and I'm the best you've found?"
He laughs, "Well, not the best, the first cast of the night, but don't they say, the 1st is the one you return to?"
Slightly offended but not really, you're not the best, but the 1st. There's a compliment in there somewhere.
"And what makes you think I'm gonna bite?" You say as you turn your body to face him.
"I would prefer it, if you didn't bite, I'm not into teeth," he replies with a twinkle in his eyes.
What does he mean? Teeth!
He can see you're confused. Then the penny drops. 'Fuck, he's talking about a blow job, does he want one from me? Do I wanna give him one?' You lean over and look at him, his face and then down his body. Very deliberately too. "Wow, you always look at your next fuck like that?" He's faking embarrassment, but smiling. "Look I'm only in the city for a short time and so far, it's been day trips, eating and drinking. But I wonder if you would be the one to shake things up and bit?"
'Why do you feel so bold all of a sudden. The way he's talking to you, looking at you, do you like it?' Your not usually open for a one night stand, 'fuck it, lets see what happens'.
"OK, show me what you've got"

Without a glance at his friends, his hand on the small of your back, he guides you out of the bar. This is going to be so much more fun than what ever Iseul's blind date had planned for you.

Walking along in a strange silence, he stops at the corner of a shop, he presses you against the shutters pinning you there with his mouth on yours.
"I thought you had a wild look about you, let's see if I was right"
His tongue explores your mouth, his lips firm and warm. He's got his hips holding yours in place, his hands on either side of the wall by your head.
"I wonder, how long it would take for my kisses to make you want more."
He's rough and charged.
Using his thumb and index finger, holding your face, he leans back, "your not letting yourself go, what if" and he slides his hand up your top. Pinches your nipple really hard and then soothes it with his thumb.
You don't let out a sound, but look at him, with growing interest. The quick pain followed by the soft rubbing action, that's a first. That's nice.
"What's up, ah! you like that?" He does the same to your other nipple, this time he is rewarded with a small moan. "Ah, so you do like it" he kisses you again. This time he sucks in your bottom lip. And when he let's go, it feels double the size.
"My hotels a few streets away, what do you say?"

He had you up against the door frame to the suite, wet and panting, from the same kisses as before. He hasn't even unlocked the door.
Once inside, he asks you how far you want to go. "Eh, I don't know what that means," he cups your chin. "Oh, princess, I'm gonna push you past your limits. And the best part about it, your going to want to go further. For a hotel suite of its size, there was no bed in that suite. If there was, you didn't see it. Instead of an hours romp like your previous partners max, or stories you had heard about one night stands, this experience went on till lunch the next day. Easily 14-plus hours.

There was ice, a leather belt, a blind fold, and you learned about safe words. He walked you through everything. Taking his time, letting you enjoy and explore.
From that night onwards, you have tried many things, always remembering what he told you as he walked you to the taxi, "Don't be shy, just try. There's so much pleasure to be had, don't limit yourself but remember to draw lines" he gave you his insta, so you could keep in contact. He said he would be travelling back this way very soon, and he would like to see your progress. " Not sure what he meant by that, you just smiled and waved.