The Mistress's 1st Maknae.

15 he needs to find a calm

It's been a few days since Jk ended the call. You think it was best to leave things as they were. It's getting to be too out of control for you. Too messy. There are too many feelings. Friday rolls around, and you're thinking about your weekend. 'An everything shower' then some face masks and deep hair conditioning treatments. Maybe you will get your nails done. Looking at them while sitting at your desk, they resemble that of a female warrior that's just returned from battle. They are all chipped, different lengths, and the skin around them is starting to break and chap.

Yeah, a chilled weekend, no stress, just you and some pamper time.

Ring Ring. Your phone interrupts the daydream. A private number. Your first thought is telemarketing, then it turns to JK.

"Hello," you answer.

"Hi, it's Bugs. Is Lola there, I need to speak to her."

Your feeling relief. But still a bit of anger. "yeah its her, but she's not somewhere that she can talk." He sounds down. "Can we meet, I need to talk to someone. Please, " shit, he sounds off. Usually, in the insta chats, he's shy and happy, then the other day he was over the top, but not today. Maybe he feels bad that he was rude to you.

For a long minute, you consider this.

Do I engage in a friendship? Do I tell him to suck it up and act right? There's no option for you to be submissive this time.

"At the house?" You ask. You can hear him sigh, "No, not there. I'm going to drop a pin, can you come now?" He seems relieved, kind of, but he still sounds funny.
"No, Bugs, Lola's at work, I can get there at 5pm or not long after," you say.
"5pm" he sighs deeply, "this place will be busy then, ok let me find somewhere else, then I will drop the pin, is that ok?"
He's asking again, it's not demanding, it's more desperate.
"Ok!" you agree, "Once you have a place, I will let you know when I can get there", your brain is telling you somethings wrong, so you ask, "are you ok, like take the games out of it, are you in trouble?"

Again, he sighs but says, "No, not trouble but troubled, I know this isn't what we do, but thank you. For one taking my call and two saying you will see me. "

Getting back to work and going about your day, it's easy. You're used to compartmentalising things. In the past, it was relationships, your needs and desires, they always got pushed aside.
Checking your phone, it's 4:57pm. There's a pin drop. It's time to see what this is about.
It will take you 15 minutes to get there, so you let him know.

Iseul and her team are taking a night off. She's heading home, "you coming?" She asks. You tell her you're going to that new platies class you started last month. She looks at you with suspicion, but for now, she doesn't say anything. Once the work group heads towards the subway, you walk towards the bus stop. There's a car waiting for you. Jk said he would send one for you.

When the driver stops, he opens your door and points towards a guy shaped object.
It's a field. Looking around you, that's all you see, a massive green field.
Shit, am I going to end up on the news?

You see him, you relax a little. When he sees you, he smiles and waves. Running the distance.

What the fuck is going on. When he called he sounded so strange and now he's out here chilling, running around. Big cheesy grin on his face. Not a care in the world.

"Hi, wanna tell me what the fucks going on?" With the tone of your voice, his smile fades slightly. Not meeting your gaze he says, "Being here with Bam, really calms me" just then, the huge bundle of brown dashes by and let's out a playful bark. Jk throws a toy and off the brown fur bullet goes.
"Aish, earlier, I'm sorry, I didn't know what to do", he fidgets, Bams returned, and this time he jumps up onto JK's back, pushing him forward. "Bam, he always helps calm me down. Being out here with him. I can forget about everything for a while. It's just one man and his dog. Nothing else matters."
He turns to face you. "It's when I go home, that things get too hard and I feel like I'm not me, that I belong to everyone else."
Shit, he really is lost. What are you going to do?