teacher's pet

not the same

𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳

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karl has spent the last twenty minutes getting his homework done, even though he has days of time left until anything is due.

lucas had to get to work early to set up his classroom and prepare everything for the day and, because he slept over, karl went in early with him. so, he spent the morning passing time on his phone and getting stuff done.

karl had said he wasn't bothered about food, but lucas had absolutely insisted that he had to eat before school so he drove them to mcdonalds to get breakfast before eating it in the parking lot and then coming into school.

karl left lucas' side before they'd even gotten into school, not wanting to give anyone any ideas if they happened to see them. though it's not like they would be wrong, if they were to think one thing or another.

karl had been tempted to just work on his story but he decided against it in favour of getting other work done. he's been so focused on writing his book that he has just been rushing the rest of his work recently, so he decides to actually put some effort in so his other teachers don't pick him up on it.

karl sort of likes the solitude of the library in the morning, because there is no one around -not even the school librarian, yet- and he doesn't need to talk to anyone. specifically sapnap.

he knows he's going to see the ravenette sooner or later (more likely sooner), but he would like to put it off for as many extra minutes as possible.

but then, at the same time, karl is starting to think that he wouldn't be too mad if sapnap was to rock up now, even if he would surely just be there to question him over everything. if only to fill up the silence that is starting to press down on the brunette, making him feel weighed upon and so, so uncomfortable.

some people thrive in the silence. karl's mind uses the quietness as an excuse to think and think and think, until he isn't sure that he can think anymore without causing himself a pain that hurts him physically.

last night is going around in his head over and over like a ringing bell. every word he said keeps coming back to him louder than before, and he thinks about the repercussions that will come from the argument. his family will be so angry, within right, but, simultaneously, he doesn't think it was wrong of him to be honest about how he feels.

maybe he could've done it in a nicer way or skipped over some of his harsher statements but, in a way, they were necessary to really get his emotions across.

he wanted them to know how badly they had hurt him, so they could think about their actions and possibly even show some remorse and improvement, but something tells him that they're just going to react negatively.

though, most people would probably be mad at someone for shouting at them, even if their behaviour came from a valid place of upset.

the stress of it all burns through karl like a slow flame, growing inside of him and charring his insides.

karl just feels awful about everything and his emotions are so strong and overwhelming. there is a sadness sitting over him that feels like an immovable cloud, one that will continue to float above him until he finds a way to fix himself.