I feel so sad. I was watching porn (I'm 15, it's going to happen) and was just seeing all these things I'm never going to have, I mean I'll never have a boyfriend who loves me enough to do that, I'll never have a boyfriend for that matter. I'll always be stuck with a body I hate, I'll never have anyone love me enough to tell me that I'm gorgeous when I'm ✨not wearing clothes✨. Look I know the rest of my system loves my GF but I just can't. No matter how hard I try I'm too fucking gay and too fucking attracted to men. For fucks sake. WHY CANT I JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL AND BR HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE?! BECAUSE IM A FUCKING FAGGOT! FUCK IM PROBABLY GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF BECAUSE NOBODY KNOWS HOW TO FUCKING HELP ME AND MY FUCKING USELESS BODY! ITS BETTER TO BE DEAD THEN HAVE NO QUALITY OF LIFE! FUCK!
-Ashton
P.s. I'm prolly fine. It's probably just the bipolar bipolaring
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