I Hate You🩶

Chapter 18

"Nandini no alcohol can make you say stuff you aren't already thinking so no I am not going to believe that. You have two options, either you can sit down and talk or"

"No I don't want to talk"

i know I am being stubborn but it's nerve wracking that I have told him about my feelings. I swore that I would never ever tell him my feelings but here we are

This is exactly why you shouldn't drink around your crush, it will ruin your life.

"Doesn't matter if you want to or not, sit down and talk to me"

"No"

"Either I force you or you do it willingly"

"I think I will take option 3 which is going to my room"

He doesn't say anything but a second is all he needed because he pushed me a little and hovered over me, his hands pinning my wrists down

"Now you are going to shut up and let me talk for a minute without interrupting"

"Manik"

"I am not upset at you, I am not mad, I am not angry and I am sure as hell not going to pretend like you didn't tell me how you feel about me last night. Yeah, it should have been when you were sober but I will not argue and nor will I be wish it wasn't said. The only question I have in mine is why you haven't confessed that to my face in all sobriety" he asks

How do I tell him that I don't have the courage to be rejected, I'd rather be friends then be nothing?

"Is it because you think I'd stop talking to you or is it because you think I have someone else and wouldn't want to come in between"

Again, I do not utter a single thing.

"Maybe it's because you think that I wouldn't feel the same way, am I right?"

He was right on the dot, every single reason he had listed was why I didn't tell him

"What is the reason, firefly" my heart beats a bit faster as he leans down

His nose touches mine and I lose all my senses, all of my rational thinking was out the window.

"Ma-manik" i whisper

"Why wouldn't you tell me you like me, firefly"

"I"

"You"

"I can't" I mumble

"Can't what?"

"I can't think when you are so close" I finally blurt out

a soft smile forms on his face, my favourite smile. He moves back a little but was still hovering over me

"I like you firefly so don't be scared to tell me why you withdrew such important information from me" his subtle confession makes my heart flutter like a butterfly in the open sky

"You do?"

"Of course I do little monster, but that's not the topic of conversation. Why did you hide it?" He asks

I take huge breath not knowing how things would go now, if he would hate me or if he would kick me out of his house even though he said he likes me

"I have liked you for a while"

"How long?" He asks

'Years, I was 8 when I felt felt something, I didn't know it was liking or love then but I mhm I know now, I have knows ever since I was old enough to understand love"

"why didn't you just tell me?"