Fourth Wing

Chapter 14

I couldnt sleep tonight. I keep tossing and turning but Alas, no sleep. Nothing is working its because im turned on all of a sudden.

I dont know where this feeling is coming from out of the blue. But im so. Turned. On. That its annoying.

A huge wave of sexual feelings arise within me. And i jerk and stand up at the feeling. I want more. God whats happening to me?! It's like all the needs and desires of the world are on my shoulders right now.

I never ever felt like this before. I just need someone Right now. Need. Need! I dash out of the door and walk fast in the creepy hallway. I need fresh air right now.

I walk out of the dormatory building as fast as possible and head towards the lake situated beside the college Its pretty calm and peaceful there all the time.

i run over there with waves of sexual desires still flowing inside me, but getting worser every second.
Tairn told me he could feel my emotions since he is bonded with me now.

So, does that mean I get to feel what he's feeling too!? Damn you Tairn! I reach the lake eventually and try to take in deep breathes. Nothing is working.

"Tairn Stop! Block me out!" I yell out aloud. But no response comes in my head. He is so into this that he can't hear me over sgaeyl's moans probably.

Oh God. That's so gross. Imagine dragons mating. That is the least thing I wanna think about ever but I can't help it right now.

"Tairn!!!" I keep screaming his name. "Stop screaming like a lunatic." A familiar voice says from behind me. I turn around to see Xaden sitting in front of a tree. He stands up slowly and puts his hands in his pocket.

"What are you doing here?" I ask him. "I could ask you the same thing violet." He tells me. He starts walking over to me and the desire keeps growing at the sight of him coming towards me.

He should go away or else I can't control myself in front of him. What do I do. He stands in front of me and I'm really about to grab his face and kiss away the desires.

"I can guess what you're going through right now. It has something to do with Tairn and sgaeyl I believe?" He asks. "Oh my god. Are you going through the same thing?" I ask him.

"No, I can block out sgaeyl so ya I don't have to go through it." He tells me. "Please teach me how to block out Tairn right now or else I won't be able to control myself." I request him in a hurry.

He lets out a chuckle. I love it when Xaden smiles, it makes him look more easy and less rude.

"God, please Xaden!" I plead again. He grabs my waist and pulls me closer. Our faces are so close to each other right now, I can feel his breath on my face. His breathing is soft right now whereas mine is hard.

"I kinda like you like this." He tells me. "Trust me you won't like it when I'll lose control." I tell him. We stare into each other's eyes in silence. He comes closer to my face and I think he might just kiss me right now.

A kiss is all I need right now. But he goes to my ears and whispers, "I think I'll love it if you lose control right now." He says in the deepest tone possible and I get a swarm of butterflies inside my stomach.

He comes closer to my face again and I slowly close my eyes waiting for him to pull me into a kiss, but the kiss never comes. I open my eyelids to see him staring at me in a confused expression.

I get embarrassed a bit and take a step back from him. I was dumb to think he'll kiss his mortal enemy.
I turn away from him feeling embarrassed and look at the lake.

"Just think of a door." He speaks up all of a sudden.
I turn to him, "Huh?" I ask. "Think of a door. On the other side of the door is all of Tairn's emotion." He tells me.

"Close your eyes and think of what I tell you to think." He tells me again. I close my eyes and start picturing a door and all of Tairn's desires on the other side of it. "Picture the door open not closed." He tells me.

I imagine the door open in front of me. "Now close that door and lock it like you never want to open it again." He tells me again and I do exactly that. I shut the door with all my might and lock it and I instantly feels better.

The waves of desires are gone. I'm back to my own feelings. I open my eyes to look at him.

"Keep the door shut in your head at all times, you may subconsciously forget it sometimes but you have to keep your guard up at all times." He tells me.

"I get it. Thank you so much Xaden." I tell him. "You're welcome." He replies back. "You should go to sleep now. I believe your problem is solved." He tells again.

"Ya, I'm going. Goodnight." I tell him. "Goodnight." He replies back.

I head to my dorm and lay down on the bed as I reach. I feel upset right now at the rejection. I was dumb to expect him to kiss me or something.

"Sorry silver one. I forgot to block you out." Tairn says in my head out of the blue. "Don't ever do that to me ever again! You put me through so much embarrassment!" I say out aloud in my head. "Don't worry I'll try my best not to forget." He says with an awkward laugh.

"You better." I warn him. "Go to sleep Silver one." He tells me. "Goodnight Tairn." I tell him and fall asleep eventually after not getting a response.