My Love For You || KTH || 21+ ✔

CH:14

Adelina

"Where's Taehyung?" I asked Saya, swallowing the pill with water. I haven't seen him since he left the room last night without talking to me. "Did he go to the office?"

She removed the glass of water from my lips and placed the half empty glass on the night stand.

"Master did not go to the office today, he is in the study room. He came early in the morning before madam woke up to check the fever." I sighed as she said, I know the reason for his silent concern.

"He seems very angry with me." I said in a small voice.

"I told you earlier,Madam,that getting wet in the rain is not a good idea and that Master would be angry if he found out, but you didn't listen to me." she said, closing the small plastic box that contained my medicine, and tucking it into a drawer on the night stand.

"Did he scold you?" I asked if he yelled at her out of anger. Because what I did is not her fault. I don't want her to hear his hurtful words because of me. She shook her head.

"No, no, it's just that he asked me sternly why I took Madam out." She looked at me, "But honestly, I was afraid of Master's deep voice and that dark stern look he gave." I can see the fear still lingering in her eyes.I let out sigh. he is really a beast when he get angry.

Although he has never spoken to me that way, I have seen him show that side to others countless times. Especially for his employees, when their work is not enough to satisfy his expectations.

Our eyes moved to the door as it opened and Taehyung walked in, still wearing the light blue tee and pair of sweatpants he wore last night. His hair is a mess, lazily falling all over his head.

It's been a long time since I've seen him at home at this time of day. That too wearing his normal clothes.

I looked at Saya and nodded telling her to go out, she quickly got up from the bed and went out. As I heard her closing the door, my eyes were fixed on my lap.

"I'm very sorry." I mumbled.but he must have heard it in the quiet room.

I slowly raised my head as I didn't get a response from him. He just stands there, his hands buried in his pants pockets, and his face expressionless.

"Sorry?" he asked sternly with a scoff. The softness in his voice used to be gone today. I swallowed the lump in my throat with difficulty. He is still angry.Very angry.My heart is racing rapidly.

"I--I know what I did was wrong----"

"Then why the hell did you do that?!" I was startled by his unexpected outburst. My eyes widened. He has never raised his voice at me, most of all he has never cursed like this. But then again, it's totally my fault.

"Are you a fucking baby?! Don't you know how dangerous it is? What if it gets worse?! Don't you have a damn brain? Do you even know how much you scared me?" he asked question after question,His aggressive deep voice echoed through the whole room.Throwing his hands in the air, he continued to scold me. My eyes fell on my lap and I silently let him scold me, I deserved it.

But his next words shocked me. "You are adding more reasons to mess up my already messed up life!" I looked at him with wide eyes, I couldn't believe he said that. I know he is angry and he has every right to be.But I never thought in my wildest dreams that he would say something like this.

But again, why didn't I expect it?

Honestly, I felt a deep cut in my heart as his words slowly took root in my mind.
I feel my eyes sting and I blink a few times forcing the tears back into my eyes.

He suddenly stopped shouting and looked at me with wide eyes. He seems to have realized the weight of the words he threw out without any care. He sighed in frustration, running his fingers through his messy hair. His chest heaves up and down.

His face shows that he regrets what he said, but words are words, once they are out there you can't take them back. The damage is done. He has already put the idea in my head that I am one of the reasons why his life is messed up.

My eyes fell back to my lap. I heard his footsteps approaching me and the mattress beside me sank as he sat down. But I was shocked when he suddenly hugged me, his face buried in the crook of my neck.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." His voice was shaking a bit. I felt a hot liquid splashing on the skin of my neck, was he crying? "I didn't mean anything, you scared me so much yesterday. I'm so angry I don't even know what's coming out of my mouth." He confessed, hugging me tighter.

“Taehyung, it's okay, please stop crying now.” I said softly. Even though his words hurt me, I still don't want to see him cry, it breaks my heart even more.

All this is my fault, if I hadn't gone to the rain, none of these problems would have happened. I should have listened to Saya. He was right I was really acting stupid and I didn't think how much my activities affect him, instead I selfishly went to get wet in the rain to vent my pain. But in the end, it only made me hurt him more.

I felt his tight grip around me loosen, and he moved his face away from my neck to look at me. His whole face was red and his eyes were swollen. Tears still rolled from his red swollen eyes and fell down his cheeks. The sight made my heart sink painfully. I wished I could at least wipe them off, but my numb body wouldn't help me.

"I'm sorry, I--"

"It's okay, I know it's my fault and you have all right to be angry," I said, and he looked at me sniffling. "And it's me who should be apologizing to you, not you."

"When you first became paralyzed, the doctors told you not to let yourself get sick because it's not good with your already poor health. So I was really scared.My mind went crazy and it's really hard for me to see you like that,you know." He said making me sighed.

Ever since Saya leaned me against the headboard of the bed as she wanted to feed me breakfast, I've been still like that.He rested his head on my chest and wrapped an arm around my waist gently

"Don't do that again. I can't afford to lose you," he whispered.

A small smile came to my lips. "I won't. I promise." I softly muttered, looking at his head, I can't see his face it's sunk into my chest.

I sighed, letting my head to fall against the softness of the headboard. My eyes stare aimlessly at the air.

I know that everything he said was out of anger and sadness, even though he himself admitted it...I can't help but one thing he said stuck deep in my mind. It really pierced my heart.

Am I really messing up his life?