It feels warm inside Alhaitham's arms. Warm and fuzzy. We huddle under the blankets together as I sob into his chest. My chees are hot as big, fat tear drops rolled down. I'm sure that Alhaitham is only doing this for show, only doing this so I fall into this tricks, only doing this to manipulate me again. Despite knowing that fact, I still melt into his arms the moment he hugged me. I decide that if I'm going to be tricked anyways, I may as well at least enjoy it while it lasts.
It's embarrassing, really, letting my guard down in front of a man I sworn to hate. But right now, I seek comfort. Any comfort, even if it's from him. So I break down shamelessly in front of him, letting him see pass all my masks. I know he can use me for this. I know how easy it is how him to manipulate my feelings. I know, yet my heart choses to ignore all the warnings my brain is sending out.
At some point, as my cries finally goes down, I fall asleep with Alhaitham besides me, still hugging me.
It feels warm inside Alhaitham's arms. Warm and fuzzy.
*
When I wake up in the morning, Alhaitham is gone.
Disappointment flashes through me when I find out, even if the event is to be expected. It's quite late in the morning, and it's unusual for me to wake up this late, too. 9:47am, when I check the clock. It's Sunday today, the only day we have off in the week. Maybe Alhaitham is at the cafeteria right now, eating breakfast. It makes sense, though I can't be that sure. Throughout the days the gray-haired boy has been here, I've only ever seen him eat a few times, and most of them is when I had to force food into his mouth because he wouldn't eat no matter what I tell him. It's always the words, "I'm not hungry."
Still snuggled up in my bed, I wrap my covers around my neck, remembering how gentle Alhaitham's touch had been last night.
It's this feeling again. I wish I understand why I feel this way, I wish I understand what this feeling is.
I close my eyes and try to enjoy the comforts of my bed for a few more moments before getting out of bed.
As I get ready for the day, I wonder how I will be able to face Alhaitham again after what happened last night... I'm sure he finds me weak and annoying...
Oh well, whatever. Who cares what that bastard thinks of me, anyways?
You do. You care too much.
*
I find Tighnari and Cyno at the cafeteria, sitting at our usual table. Collei is with them, besides Collei there's also Layla. Layla is taking a small nap besides Collei while the olive-haired girl chats happily with her brother, with Cyno lazily watching his phone besides them.
I look around the cafeteria, Alhaitham is nowhere to be seen.
A feeling of emptiness crosses my chest. I'm not sure whether to be glad I don't have to face him so soon or be sad that he doesn't want to see me, either.
Wait, why would I even be sad that he doesn't want to see me?
Grunting to myself, I walk over to my friends. Cyno looks up to me and nods as I pull out a chair to sit down beside them.
"Where's Alhaitham?" The snow-white haired boy asks me, I shrug.
"He was gone when I woke up."
Tighnari turns to our conversation, "I've seen him with Nilou multiple times together in the library, maybe he's with her right now?"
I stare at him, "Nilou? Why the fuck would he be with Nilou?"
Tighnari blinks at you, "They're study partners, didn't you know? I'm sure Alhaitham has told you from how close you two are."
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❝𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕒 𝕜𝕚𝕤𝕤❝ | haikaveh fic | boarding school AU
Fanfiction"It was just a kiss, Kaveh." What's more frustrating than having your long lost childhood best friend become your roommate in your boarding school overnight? That's what Kaveh is experiencing right now. His life was going so good- He had friends, no...
