❝𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕒 𝕜𝕚𝕤𝕤❝ | haikaveh fic | boarding school AU

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a/n: i love love love love love love love love love love writing 5wirl

Slamming the door close, I lean back on the door, letting my body slide down as I sit, letting out a shaky breath.

Why am I upset?

No, that's not the right question. What the hell was wrong with me during that conversation? "I loved you"?! Archons...

What is this, a love story? Why did I sound so melodramatic?

I suppose the three words are not exactly wrong. I spent 3 years of my life loving Alhaitham, loving his gray hair, loving his diamond shaped eyes.

I loved him.

Not anymore.

A year ago, I finally accepted the fact that Alhaitham had left me for good, and he's not coming back anytime soon. I learned to let go, to move on, to live my own life instead of spending all the hours thinking of a guy who's already well gone in my life.

I know I can't blame him for leaving, I know that he was vulnerable at the moment so he didn't fight back to his grandma. After all, that night... His parents did pass away, more or less. It's not his fault. I know better than anyone else. But I can't forgive him no matter what. I was fine with how complicated and messy I feel when I think about him, I was never going to see him again anyways.

But then I did. He came back the moment I let go.

Fuck him.

The warm feeling I experience whenever I look at him.

Is it love? Do I still love him?

I decide to leave that question in the air. I'm going to stay in denial for just a while longer before doing anything too rash. I'll distance myself from him. Nothing good ever comes out of being friends with Alhaitham, I learned it the hard way.

I feel myself on the verge of tears. Why did I have to argue with him? Everything between us was getting so much better before I just decided to ruin it all with my petty attitude.

I lay on the door for a few more moments, my uniform shirt now wet from the tears dripping down my cheeks.

Slightly mad at myself for getting upset, I stand up and wipe my face clean of water. I start walking down the hallway, looking for a place to be, to occupy and distract me from this misery. It's also starting to get hard to breath inside, I need fresh air.

Making my way out of the Sumeru building, I suck in a long breath, my heart finally calming down as I exit the suffocating walls.

I start walking around the campus. My eyes are puffy from crying and my shirt is still wet. If anyone sees me right now, it would be quite obvious that I cried.

I am deep in thought when a high-pitched, feminine voice yells, "Hey!" Ignoring it, I continue walking, convinced the voice is yelling at someone else. It would just be a pain to turn around and find out they're not talking to me.

"Hey!"

I continue walking.

"The blonde guy!"

Blonde guy. I have blonde hair, but maybe they're calling someone else with blonde hair? That would be too coincidental though... I blink, and realize they might just be talking to me. Turning around, I let out a sigh as I see 2 familiar faces running towards me. One frantically waving his hands at me and sprinting while the other is reluctantly jogging behind him.

Venti and Xiao.

Venti has a guitar bag on his back, likely carrying a guitar in it, while Xiao has a similar bag.