Love,
I am scared.
I forgot what you sound like.
And the bad memories outshine the good ones now. My heart is turning into stone.
I hate you. But I love you more than I've ever been able to love anything in this world.
I want you. But I'm not sure I'll be the same if we ever meet again.
I need to hate you.
Why'd you love me Quynn ? Why'd you chose me ?
It's killing me. Thinking of you badly feels like poison running inside my veins.
I wish we'd never met. That I had looked away that day you moved in.
I wish I'd never went through your fucking window.
And then I hate myself for wishing all of this.
Because even in my anger, even hating you, I still yearn for you. You're the most beautiful kind of pain.
You saved me so many times. From my dad. From myself. From my pain. I made you a hero inside my heart.
So remind me.
Come back to me and remind me why I fell for you. Let me hear your beautiful voice and look into the eyes that breathed life into my dead soul.
I love to hate you.
Irrevocably yours.
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All I Want #1.5 : Words Left Behind
PoetryThis is a short collection of poems and love letters written by Quynn and Mute after their breakup as they try to make sense of it all. It can be read as a standalone, or after completing All I Want #1 to get better context.
