Words I Never Got To Say

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Sometimes I want to scream,
and tell the whole world
how vulnerable I am.
But it wouldn't  be me anymore
if someone else sees through my weaknesses.
I have  always been the fighter,
the mediator,
the  happy go lucky person.
If I show  how broken I am inside,
would anyone even believe me?
People often praised how independent I am,
when in fact, I've been struggling
keeping up this front.
For once,
I want to peel off this facade,
and allow people to know and see who I really am:
the insecure one,
the loner,
the  'I'm not sure I can make it" one,
the "I can't trust  anyone" one,
and the 'I feel so small" one.
However, I've been emotionally independent
my ego an't allow anyone to see
how little I think of myself.
Because if they knew,
who would believe in me anymore?
They'll think of me so lowly,
more lowly than I see myself,
and I won't be able to take it...

- Bleed.On.Paper

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