They say it comes in 5 stages
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression,
And finally acceptance.
What they never tell you is that the process takes an eternity.
Denial, the "no, it can't be"
That plagued me every morning for months
When my mind caught up with the time
And every memory came crashing back.
Anger, the stage that no one understands
Until the unfortunate time comes
And they must see it with their own eyes.
The emotions that linger for far too long.
My emotions plagued me for months, years.
How is a child supposed to understand
Why she is angry with her brother
For being taken out of her life.
The stage of anger brings more,
Shame, guilt, confusion, self-hatred.
I hate myself for being angry,
Why am I so angry?
Bargaining, a rather short stage.
Yet it was in that short stage that I found myself
Constantly on my hands and knees
Begging God to trade his life for mine.
Depression, the underestimated stage.
No matter how hard they try
No one can capture this feeling and place it
Into the small vocabulary of our language.
Acceptance. When did I accept it?
Have I accepted it?
Have I forgiven my God?
Have I forgiven you?
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My Poems
PoesíaLiterally just a place for me to post random poems Attempting to keep them organized by nature/ theme Posting new ones when I have them or when I feel like it
