Cold Cold Hearts

Chapter 9: The Break-Up

Grace's POV

"Hey baby." Joel said in a sleepy voice.

This is it, here we go.

"Hey." I said in a serious tone, I can't believe I am going to hurt the one person who has done nothing but take good care of me.

"Is everything alright?" he asked reading my tone.

No, I am about to break your heart. "I have something important to talk to you about." I said not really knowing how to let him down slowly without hurting him so bad... if that was even possible.

"Okay go on." he sounded serious now. Oh no I will never hear his soft voice again.

"Joe... I don't know where to start or how to say this to you..." I said as I started to sob. 

"You are scaring me, tell me what this is about?" he sounded so concerned it only made me feel guilty even more.

"Us." and with that I started crying so loudly.

"What about us?" he questioned, his voice sounded so shaky. My poor sweet boy.

"I don't think we will work out." I had finally said the line I had wanted to tell him just after 3 months of dating him.

He started to sob. Noooo maybe it's okay if I remain unhappy for the rest of my life as long as he will be happy. 

We both were crying and I continued, "I am so sorry." 

"Grace..." he was trying his best to get the words out of his mouth, "I love you."

"I love you too." I meant it, I did love him as the person he is. 

"Are you sure this is what you want?" How could I answer this? I rather say no and stop the pain he is feeling. Pain which I am causing.

I just cried so loudly and I guess he took that as a yes. "Goodbye my love." 

Oh no this is really the end? No no no.

"Goodbye cute boy." I managed to say.

And with that he cut the call and I started to cry even louder... in pain and in relief. 

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Joel's POV

I was in a deep sleep when my phone started buzzing.

I was gonna cut the call because who the hell calls this early in the morning, but when I picked up my phone I saw that it was Grace. I immediately picked up.

"Hey baby." I said.

"Hey." she said in a serious tone. Oh no something is up.

"Is everything alright?" 

"I have something important to talk to you about." she said so carefully almost as if she didn't want to hurt me.

I got up from my sleeping position and sat on my bed.  "Okay go on." I said unsure of what to expect.

"Joe... I don't know where to start or how to say this to you..." she said as she started to sob. 

"You are scaring me, tell me what this is about?" 

"Us."

My heart sunk. 

"What about us?" I questioned. Oh no was my worse nightmare about to come true? Has this amazing girl who I knew was too good for me finally realized she can do better without me?

"I don't think we will work out." she sounded almost as if she was relived to say that and it just ripped my heart right out and I couldn't control my tears.

A part of me knew we would end like this. But there was another part of me who was hoping we would work out against all odds.

"I am so sorry." she said. No I am. 

The thing is I figured long back that Grace wasn't exactly happy with me and the fact that she put up with me showed me that she cared and selfishly I used that in hopes that eventually she will fall in love with me. But I guess you can't make someone fall in love with you by chance.

"Grace..." I was trying my best to get the words out of my mouth, "I love you." I meant it, I loved this girl so fucking much, and I wanted her to know that. Even if it was for one last time.

"I love you too." Ahh if only it was in the way I wish she meant.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" I should really let this girl go and let her truly be happy. I have tried all my luck here and still my heart was hoping she would stay. 

Instead of answering she cried so loudly. I felt so guilty, I can't believe staying with me hurt her this badly. It's not fair for her to stay in a relationship she is not happy in.

"Goodbye my love." I managed to say. 

"Goodbye cute boy." she said. Oh how I will miss hearing her voice.

 And with that I cut the call and I started to cry louder... in pain.