Star-Crossed Melodies (Echoes #1)

Chapter 39

Warning: R-18

Chapter 39

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Na nanatili akong nakayakap sa kanya. I could hear his soft sniffles, and even without looking, I knew he was crying.

I closed my eyes, wishing on this cold night that we would be granted mercy. Just let us be happy. Ang dami-daming hadlang sa aming dalawa. I hope this time fate will just support us.

"Promise, I've changed. I've fixed myself for you. I'll be better to match you, just come back to me, please..." nanginginig ang aking boses.

Fear still grips me. I'm afraid he might reject me again. Maybe he won't give me another chance. I don't know if he still loves me or not. Because, if he ask me, I love him very much. I don't know if this feeling will ever fade.

I have no idea what he did to me to make me go crazy over him like this. And I hope he feels the same way about me. I hope he loves me just as much as I love him so he won't be able to leave me.

"What do I have to do for you to love me too? So you won't leave? Because you always leave me, but when it comes to me, I can't bear to leave you." nang hihina kong bulong.

Isang luha ang kumawala sa kanyang mata. Dahan-dahan kong tinanggal ang kanyang salamin para mapunasan nang maayos ang kanyang luha. There was a pang in my heart, but knowing he's with me now, it doesn't hurt as much.

"Throughout all the time we've been together, I don't need to question if you also want me. Hinihintay ko na sabihin mo kahit saglit sa akin na... mahal mo rin ako." umiling ako bago bumagsak ang luha sa akin.

Akala ko tapos na akong umiyak. I thought that when I saw him, I wouldn't cry anymore. I thought it would be easy for us to get back together. But there's still fear in me that maybe he doesn't want it after all.

Palagi kong sinasabi na ayokong mamilit ng isang tao.

Tumingin sa akin si Ellis nang makita ang luha ko. At sa buong buhay ko, ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang saya dahil gamit ang hinlalaki, pinunasan niya ang aking luha sa pisngi.

Humikbi ako at napapikit lalo. Tears continued to flow from my eyes. My heart was pounding hard, mixing pain and joy. Each beat was painful.

Mainit ang daliri niyang dumampi sa aking pisngi. I opened my eyes even though they were full of tears.

"I'm becoming selfish in loving you. This love is getting deeper. And I'm afraid you might not want me anymore because I'm being selfish."

Para akong bata na umiiyak sa harapan niya. I pitied myself for loving him like this.

"I'm s-sorry..." bulong niya habang pinupunasan ang luha ko.

Bakit siya nag sosorry? Dahil minahal ko siya? Umiling ako sa kanya bago lumunok. I licked my lips before taking a deep breath, trying to calm myself.

"It's not your fault that I loved you like this," I whispered.

Inilingan niya lamang ako.

"Pasensya na kung ganito lang ako. Hindi k-kasi ako marunong mag p-pakita ng pag mamahal sa ibang tao. Hindi ko kayang ipakita sa iba na nag mamahal ako." sabi niya sa mahinang boses.

Tears continued to fall from his eyes.

"Noong minahal mo ako, Austin, ngayon ko l-lang nalaman na nawalan ako ng confidence sa sarili. Ni hindi ko kayang suklian ang pag mamahal na binibigay mo sa akin s-sa sobrang insecure. Natatakot ako n-na baka hindi ka makuntento sa kung ano lang ang kaya kong ibigay,"