The Journalist and The Photographer vs The Soccer Player

The Fight of Siblings

~Next Morning~

My head felt like it was banging against the wall all night. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even shut my eyes for any longer than 5 seconds. I spent the night, after everyone went to sleep or blacked out, trying to understand what was happening. I felt so sick when Remus told me that, but so... Relieved? I couldn't tell, I wanted to know, but I couldn't tell.

"Butterflies in your stomach... I felt safe with them now... I've thought about them constantly... Fuck," I snapped at myself, realizing what I've felt toward Remus and Roman was some sort of love. But I didn't want to love. I couldn't handle love.

"Hey, uh... Lo... Logie, you got that... headache stuff?" I heard Luca's voice from my doorway.

"Yeah," I muttered, grabbing the bottle from my desk and taking three out. I swallowed one with a sip of my water, giving him the other two pills with shaky hands. I knew that would give it away.

"The hell you shaking for?" he asked, rubbing the side of his head after swallowing the pills.

"...A lot happened," I said, walking back over to my desk.

"...Have you slept?" he asked.

"No, not at all... I was going to sleep, planning on an early night to let you all party. But," I hesitated, staring at the notes I took.

"But...?"

"I... Well... Remus got really wasted and drunk, enough to not recognize me," I started.

"I'll-" he started.

"He didn't do anything, I swear. But he... told me," I kept hesitating. Luca could tell if I truly lied.

"Told you what?"

"...Luca, him and Roman love me," I almost whispered.

"...Repeat that?"

"Him and Roman love me. Both of them do. Luca, he told me... he told me he doesn't want to let me go, but thinks he should because no one would want to date a crook. But... he also didn't want Roman hurt because I wasn't looking for any relationship," I explained.

"...there's something else," he said.

"Damn you and your psychic shit," I cursed.

"Well?"

"I... Think I'm in love too. But I don't want to date anyone, I don't... I don't want to repeat mom's mistake. I don't want to ever have that chance to possibly repeat that," I told him, standing up again.

"Wait, wait slow down," he said.

"I can't! Luca, I think I'm in love. And not just with one of them," I snapped.

"...What?"

"You heard me."

"...Logan-"

"I don't want to break both of their hearts Luca. I don't know what to do! I don't want to lead one of them either. What... what if I reject Remus, but then Roman's feelings get stronger because he thinks he has a shot? Or the other way around? Remus... Remus is my first real friend, not introduced by you, not by dad, not by Vivi. He's my friend that I met and got along with. But Roman and I have gotten better, and also not because you forced us, or Vivi!" I said, tears stinging my eyes. I hated crying, I couldn't stand it. But I couldn't help it.

"...About that-" Luca started.

"...What do you mean 'about that'?" I snapped, hating those words when it came to something sensitive or upsetting to me.