Tw Eating disorders
Devons pov
I walk up I sit up in bed I stand up
I pick a white shirt up and blue jeans not what I wanna wear but I need to act straight I'm scared to come out cause of what happened with jake wheeler he was a really sweet boy I feel so bad for him i wish I didnt end our firendship when junior told me I put my shoes on and leave my house i get on the bus I see jake his arms? Have scars I feel worst now he's so sweet but if only he didn't hate me for what I did
I started thinking about what happened
Me and jake were best friends we had been for years untill one day junior told me that jake was gay at first it didn't bother me but junior started saying to me
What if he likes u devon
And that got to my head I ended our firendship now if he did like me I wouldn't be mean to him I just say I don't feel the same but he never showed any sighs of him liking me
Junior sits down next to me
Jr:hey dev
D:hey junior
Junior talks to me I act like im listening im not really we get to school and I go to my first class after class I feel like I should talk to jake its lunch ill go find him
Hes talking to this ginger girl? I get closer he notices me
D:jake can we talk
J:what do u want
D:I just said
J:I mean talk what about
D:somewhere that she isn't
N:anything u can say to jake u can say with me here
This bitch
D:fine, jake im sorry
J:huh
D:im sorry
J:fuck off
D:I mean it
J:no I bet ur only "sorry" cause of my scars
D:jake i mean it
J:I don't believe it
He gets up and walks away as the girl follows
Fuck I walk to get some lunch but
I stand still I can't bring myself to go ask for food I instead walk to the library and pick out a book I sit on the floor in a corner cause I don't want anyone walking over to me
I don't know why I have werid eating I just do I can't bring myself to eat sometimes its easy to eat sometimes I just can't im pretty sure thats normal but there's always a gult after eating its werid like I want to throw up after eating it makes it hard to eat I havent ate anything for 2 days but I just can't bring myself to I know I need to but I cant the bell rings I get up and walk to my next class
