Tw self harm Jakes pov: I get up devons coming home tomorrow I feel more like im breaking and I want to break down in his arms so bad and tell him everything and get the comfort I need so bad but im breaking in too to many pieces and I want it to stop i wasn't clean at all my arms were sore from c_tting last night I feel sick lexy and nadine were talking I wasn't really listening I felt faint and dizzy lexy grab my shoulder L:hello? We" re trying to talk to you J:oh sorry N:whats going on with you J:nothing N:really u weren't answering us J:yea i don't feel very goo- I fainted L:JAKE I woke up a minute later J:what happened N:u fainted J:oh shit L:are u okay J:yeah I just haven't ate much today and uts hot N:haven't ate much today? Not true u haven't ate at all today and its not that hot J:idk N:how long has it been since u last ate something J:that dosent matter L:yes it dose J:I hate eating im too fat anyways It was quiet L:jake u are a fucking twink N:exactly also u are eating something right now J:please dont make me L:I will tell devon J:fine I don't want devon knowing he had a eating disorder last year he told his mum about it a few months ago and his eating is good most days as well I cant let him find out my eating is fucked as well I eat something to make them happy im still quite quiet the rest of the day I go home I pick out my outfit for Tomorrow I needed to look as cute as possible
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I try this outfit uts devs shirt but then I look at my body the scars lex and nads are right im too skinny no one should(not true at all) have to look at me im ugly and my scars are disgusting devon wouldn't like this I grab This instead
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Not bad i place it on the end of my bed and fall asleep
