Tw Suicide Thoughts
Jakes pov:
I get a monster from devon
He gets an ahoolic drink im to scared of achool so after a hour devons drunk as fuck devons talking to this girl
Ofc hes straight
She trys to kiss him but he pushes her away
I wonder why?
He walks away
J:nadine ill be back
I follow devon
Hes in the bathroom but the doors open hes crying?
J:devon?
He jumps
D:j-jake
J:whats wrong
I walk in and shut the door
D:nothing
J:why are u crying then
D:i-i wasn't
J:ur nose is pink theyres tears in ur eyes
D:its nothing
J:u pushed that girl away when she tryed to kiss u is that why ur crying
U wanted to kiss her but got scared
D:I didnt
J:then why are u crying
He takes a deep breath
D:im gay jake
I wrap my arms around him and hug him
J:u shouldn't cry over that
D:I feel like I'm not normal tho jake
He jumps onto the bathroom counter
D:I feel like I'm going to come out and be hated im scared of my mother hating me im scared that no ones gonna want me and im scared that ill be bullyed im scared that im not gonna have a normal life
He says with tears in his eyes
D:im also scared that ill end up dead by the end of this year
I look at him with a worried look
J:why would u end up dead
He dosent say anything
He takes a deep breath
D:because I want to be
Its so quiet but also so loud at the same time I sit next to him and wrap my arms around him pulling him into a hug
I rub his shoulder I start humming to him
He stops crying
His head falls onto my shoulders
His breathing slows down
D:i-im sorry
J:for what
D:telling u all that u didn't need to b-
J:don't be im here for u
D:t-thank u
J:is there a reason u want to well die
D:yeah
J:do u wanna tell me
D:I hate that I'm not into girls I feel like I should be but I cant I hate that im bad at firendship and I hate my autism
J:u shouldn't hate those things dev
I lift his head up
J:there normal even if it dosent feel like it
The tears from his eyes start to disappear
He wipes his face
J:ur brave ur brave as fuck dev come on u can stay at mine cause I don't know how to get everyone to leave
D:okay
I get up off the table and help devon down I grab nadine and we go back to mine
I walk into the house
Its 3am so my aunt and uncle are asleep
