Tw Suicide attempt self harm and child abuse
Jakes pov:
Junior wants me to tell my aunt and uncle about everything but I just can't I just can't today at school was the worst when devon was outted me lex nads and jun helped him from the bullying but my bullying worsened I didn't tell them it was pointless I was fine anyways I was sitting on a bench outside as one of my bully's came up and screamed in my ears Im autistic and I freak out at loud noises so obviously I ran off I was also locked in a locker for 5 minutes people yelled f@ggot at me I really can't do this I walked home I don't give a fuvk if my dads mad at me for leaving school at lunch I want to sleep I got home
Lw:jake u shouldn't be home
J:u shouldn't ether so who cares
He pushes me hard I fall on the ground shitt hes more drunk then normal why? Oh...
Right.
Todays my mums birthday..
He keeps hitting and kicking me I put my hands over my head to protect myself till he stops
Lw:go to ur room
I don't even say anything just run up I break down once I get to my room I want devon back I want to kiss his dumb face his smile his laugh I miss him hes still away with his mum for her case he won't be back for another month I grab my bl@de i c_t and c_t untill I can't feel my arms anymore my dad did finally refill my pills I grab them
MAD TW
I start taking them I take and take and take and take I feel dizzy hopefully ill die this time I pass out for idk how long untill I wake up and throw up I keep throwing up then I pass out again I throw up again and again and again till I pass out for the last time
Maybe this will kill me maybe....
End of tw!
I wake up after a few hours I sit up my head hurts my arms hurt and there's alot of puke on my floor I slowly get up and get stuff to clean it with I grab my phone and see a shit ton of devons messages
My lovey boy
D:Jakeee
D:hi?
D:jakee are u awake
D:its only 2pm
Time skip to 4pm
D:u normal reply by now whats happening
D:jake?
D:jake?
6pm
D:Jesus fucking chirst jake why aren't u reply
D:are u okay
D:ur not even opening the chats
D:I miss u
D:is everything okay
D:did I do something
8pm
D:JAKE
D:FOR FUCK SAKE JAKE WHAT THE FUCK ARE U OKAY?
D:jake im worried are u okay
D:ill leave u alone now but please text me
4am
J:shit dev I'm sorry
D:what happened are u okay
J:its nothing im fine
D:can we call
J:ofc
He calls me
D:can u tell me what happened why didn't u reply fir hours
J:its nothing really
D:jake
J:um
D:jake? Okay answer this bad mental health day or good mental health day or normal
J:um bad
D:what happened
J:its fine dev
D:jake
J:everything was just too much today nothing else
D:okay I have good news to make u feel better
J:yea?
D:instead of coming home in a month its next week my mum finshed the case!!
J:really???
D:yes
I smiled so hard I think I nearly passed out(again)
J:thank fuck I need u back here I miss u so fucking much
D:I miss u too anyways I should being going to sleep now goodnight!
J:goodnight! I love you
D:I love u too
He hangs up
I feel sad and sick again I fall asleep
