Tw SH bad mental child abuse
Jakes pov:
I'm trying to stay calm today I've been crying hard every day and idk how to stop it its always when the smallest thing happens but everything and everyone is making it so hard I nearly cryed atleast 5 times at school
Devons been away with his mum because she needed to go to a different country for her new case but every since he left Im in pieces without him lexy is sick oilver I actually don't know where he is nadine is taking care of lexy not sure what Juniors doing soim at school alone my dad's scary drunk so I don't wanna be at home today but I don't have anyones to stay at i don't really know what to do im probably just gonna walk around or sit somewhere for hours and just go home really late but that'll be piss ky dad off and I really can't deal with him today I feel the dry bl00d on my arms they keep grabbing my sleeves
As I hear "Move fag" I wasn't in his way I don't real- oh its that star person
Last year he outted devon
J:the fuck do u want
S:oh nothing just wanted to see how devon is
Wtf hes being such a CUNT
J:hes fine can u fivk off u cunt
S:wow rude
J:I don't give a shit
S:well u won't mind if I
He pushes me and go's through my locker
J:HEY STOP
He grabs my notebook and trys to run
i grab his bag and slam him on the floor and grab my notebook back
J:what the FUCK
s:Heyy come onn
J:I really don't have time for this
I lock my locker and leave but ofc he follows me
S:ur just a dumb faggot
J:probs
S:whats this
He yanks my necklace off my neck a few months ago me and devon decided to get necklace with Jw<3(jake wheeler) for his and De<3(devon evans)for mine there in hearts as well
J:give that back wtf
S:De? Who's th- devon evans isn't it
J:who else would it be give me that bac-
He breaks it
He
Breaks
It
I cant tell if im mad or sad I feel both
J:WHAT TH3 FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU
I grab the broken necklace pieces and run away as I can feel myself starting to cry I run into the bathroom and lock myself in a stall as I start crying I really really can't do this I take my blade out my phone case and place it on my skin the blade c_ts my skin i know as it bleeds i feel calmer but I know this is bad I roll my sleeve down as I'm going home I no longer give a shit about what my dad says I need to sleep I leave the bathroom tear stained eyes still and I jst walk out of school I get home
Lw:jake what the fuck are u doing home
J:I just can't be there
Lw:u can't just leave
J:I've said I just can't be there jeez can't u just leave it as that
Lw:no also this person messaged me on Facebook said u c_t urself and ur gay
J:u already know im gay
Lw:u C_t urself?
J:fuck off
He grabs my wrist and rolls them up
Lw:THERE FREASH U FUCKING CUTTING FAGGOT
j:jm not doing this
I grab my arm and walk away 8 can't even cry by this point all I feel is numb I think im dying I need devon I start crying thought that was leaving I need devon I need devon I need him I want him to hold me kiss my forehead tell me it'll be fine I fall on my floor I can't do this I just can't i-
A knock on my door
Jr:hey bitchhh
Junior
J:hi
I open the door
Jr:my favourite cousin ur alive
J:unfortunately
He shuts my door
Jr:whats going on with you jake
J:nothing im fine
Jr:no ur not u havent hung out with us in weeks u barely hung out with devon before he left ur barely talking to any of us and ur really dry u don't seem fine
I feel tears welling up in my eyes again
Please stop
Jr:jake? Talk to me
He sits down next to me
Jr:im ur cousin im always here for you
J:its-uts everything i feel like im drowing or more like im being drowed everything overwhelms me I feel like im crazy I feel like shit all the time I ran out of my antidepressants pills my dad isn't getting me more and he won't listen when I tell him im going crazy he won't stop hitting me-
Jr:wait he hits u
I nod
Jr:jake why didn't u tell me
J:because i don't wanna be a burden
I pull my knees up to my chest
Jr:ur not a burden
J:everyone makes me feel like I am
I cry harder
Jr:ur not
J:I cant do this I can't I just can't
Jr:yes u can
J:no I really can't my arms hurt so fucking much all the time im always so fucking tried I've tryed to hard to get better in the end I always end up feeling shit again
Jr:jake
J:im so tried i can't i-i want to die
The silence after I said that
He hugs me
Jr:no you will he okay everything will be okay
J:will it
Jr:what do u mean by ur arms always hurt
J:its nothing
Jr:jake
J:I mean its not nothing but it dosent matt-
Jr:tell me
J:I-um sometimes c_t myself it-it j-just helps alot
He hugs me
Jr:since ur dad isn't listening u could try talk to my mum and dad
J:maybe
972 words and its just me self projecting onto jake
