The Horrors of 2018

Desolate

Warning for cussing, mentions of sxxcide and self hxrm.

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In the end, would it really be nice to have some form of
strength left
because he's upset yet again

after all this time
seconds, days, weeks, and a year
spent with this guy
who
rejected their sorries
and told some to die.

was it the right path, the choices that were made?
You know it's bad
when the one that split apart
says there's something wrong with this.

it needs
a change.
They all say so and it's very apparent that something is wrong
being physically hit to the ground
and then mentally, by this guy.

Because no sane person
can continue to live
this way, disrespected
down to the muck of a river bottom.

consider that so many times it's been fun but then something beats it into a bloody pulp
ponder what would it be like to pass away?

I've lost my blades and it's a cold day to die
and he's
on
the edge
of a ledge

The others were right, I should've spared time
but it's far too
late

and now he's spewing his words
that hit like bullets
and kill
a weak mind

so let's suck it up, and stay in the muck
the hierarchy works just fine like this

he think's he's so wrong
and says this conversation was an abyss

then he tries to
switch
the lines
blur them out, scribble lies
every human life
is alright and equal

but he refuses
to view it that way

so here
lies the clown
for countless futile tries, and all of those lies

he becomes self-aware
then these bones are skinned bare
it's impossible to get up
back to where things were
because words hurt like sharp ended rocks
rip through flesh, yet they still drone

knowing it's nothing
it'll be worthless and waste effort
if an attempt is made
to show the light
because he'll shoot a thick bullet to go right through a thick skull

It's better to lose some of my own
and be sucked in as well
a vampire bite
there's only so many times
that teeth can claw through
until their victims are dry
and there's nothing coming through

Neresko, if only
you could be here with us too
but you need to stay out
nobody deserves to see this with their own eyes.

here lies the clown
with maggots on the casket
it's not even
six
feet
down

the warmth of a stab, with guts gushing through
but the warmth doesn't last
blood encrusts, and the skin dries out too

dear so and so, to read this
please remember that you
shouldn't always
take the opportunity

while it may seem harmless,
it'll hospitalize you
in the long run
that's what these innocent chances do.

sanity's gone and now I want to hurt someone
desire to strangle them
throw a desk, that would take out some ribs
this doesn't feel real
beat me to the ground and I'll kill myself too
all these visuals, they don't make sense anymore
I love you Alex, Logan you too
you pull me out of these things
without even speaking
but no miracle will work
for someone like him, as he says
"he's worthless"

of course every reason hopelessly sent
is overlooked by words of ill intent
that don't even try to pull themselves out of their miserable state.

it all narrows down to this
he doesn't even try

AND THEN WE HAVE THIS BITCH
TRIES TO INTERRUPT
IN THE MIDDLE OF DISARRAY, SHE'S SO NARCISSISTIC
SHE TRIES TO JUSTIFY
HOW SHE'S SO FUCKING IMPORTANT
THAT SOMEONE'S SKINSCREWS ARE JUST ATTENTION SEEKING
AND LOVES HER GODDAMN RELIGION MORE THAN THE "FAMILY"
SHE TORE APART.

WELL SHE CAN GO ROT

IF SHE KNEW ALL OF THIS
SHE WOULDN'T EVEN HELP.
(aisle<<<<A, L, N, D, S)

there will be a physical future
but it won't be pleasant
they'll be locked up
and here we be on the streets

I think I picked the wrong way
a dead end, try to climb
but to fall and break bones
in this withering body that's starving for a reason

all that care ended
and the farms have gone dry
now to desperately crawl in a desert that burns anyone alive

it's just a black hole
and the universe makes no sense
we shouldn't be alive
and the world's going down in a little
from his point of view.

Patient 0 is hard to cure
but in the process, youre infected
and soon you die with the same infection.

HE BRINGS ALL ATTENTION TO THE NEGATIVE ACTIONS OF LIFE AND WONDERS WHY HE IS SAD

candle scents wont last forever if you burn them over and over again, neither will a human's compassion last forever if you keep deflecting every attempt to fucking save you

stand your ground, asymil, it wouldve been better if you had told the truth.