The Horrors of 2018

No Excuse in the Dark

Warning for mentions of self h_rm and tools, mentions of d__th, and cussing.

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FUCKING HELL

They took it away but I fucking denied hurting myself what the FUCK.
Those goddamn razors were one of the only things that gave feelings of cope but now they're gone because dumb fuck Aisle decided to be a nasty little BITCH AND OVERSTAYED HER FORCED "WELCOME"
FUCK HER
SHE SHOULD GO FUCK HERSELF
FUCK THAT LITTLE BASTARD WITH SUCH A STUPID NOSY LITTLE HABIT

Now things are on their own

I'm in the dark now, if they catch me with the last blade I'm fucking dead and gone

Guess this comes with getting older

this is why it's five initials instead of six
the sixth initial, how fucking dare they ask in the middle of this disarray like a hopeless piece of shit
There's already something they can use that I gave
It would've been better to close off so they wouldn't start being so FUCKING ANNOYING THIS MOTHERFUCKER ASKED ONCE, TWICE, THREE GODDAMN TIMES AND THEIR SWINY LITTLE SHITFACE STILL ISN'T SATISFIED.
Fortunately the other five have hearts not of stone but of flesh.

Since the main source of non-safeday harm is locked away from these hands, it's time to resort to older tactics.
It's easy to hide with longsleeves, isn't it?

A, T, S, D, and N. Fucking thank you all for acting so lovingly towards something of my likes. Especially you, A.

If only these seconds
could be rewinded,
if only an undo
existed for every action.

Tomorrow, it's dread;
all filled with dread
because the martyrs
will have no protection
and their demise
meet them yet again.

Fucking hell, she only
exists to create pain
out of what pathetic life
is already tough enough.

FUCK YOU SONOE. FUCK YOU. GO SUCK ON A GODDAMN DICK IF YOU'RE NOT ALREADY DOING THAT, BECAUSE EVERYONE FINDS YOU, A WRETCHED CREATURE WITH THAT HORRID NAME, A FRUSTRATION AND NOTHING MORE. A PAIN IN THE ASS. NEVER BOTHER ANYONE AGAIN.

I fucked up yet again for a faulty fucking reason, what a nice example of how ironic shit is

Three days following,
there lay a new light.
Stretch a circle to red snap,
a new healing sensation.

Joyed apotheosis of those
wandering along the path,
along these limbs of bone
a scarlet, warm underside.

There lays a bottle of it.
Itches gone, with no bother.

god even the people that want to fuckin help for whatever shit they get in return give up
if this is what kind is, guess everything is fucked now

One remainder. It magically appeared. One of them is back. The rest may be hidden because of Aisle, but one. One more chance. It's not a safeday, but why does it feel as pleasant as one? It could be a message.

Why would this appear if it wasn't meant to be used?

whatever the reason it will be used