Safiyyah

The Young Passengers

Na sauke idona daga kallon hoton zuwa kasa, ita ta jawo min duk abinda yake faruwa da rayuwata na sani, amma kuma na san cewa dan Adam baya taba wuce kaddarar sa, rayuwar da tayi ita ce tata kaddarar, nima kuma halin da nake ciki shine tawa kaddarar, kuma na sani cewa addu'a tana chanja kaddara dan haka har yanzu ban gaji ba kuma ba zan taba gajiya ba wajan gyara rayuwata.

She was my role model, she has always been. Courage da determination dinta su suke hana ni giving up a lokuta da dama. Yadda ta chanja rayuwar ta from worst to best haka nima nake fatan chanjawa. Giving up has never been in her dictionary and it is not in mine. Kamar yadda Daddy yake yawan yin comment a lokuta da dama, lokutan da muke good time da shi, cewa her fire is burning in me, cewa I have her zeal, strength, bravery and stubbornness, wannan shi nake so in yi proving right.

Maganar Daddy ce ta dawo dani daga tunani na. "Safiyya, daga ina kike? gurin sa kika je ko?" Na dago kai na kalle shi, sai na yi sauri na sake sunkuyar da kaina dan ba zan iya cigaba da hada ido da shi ba.

Mommy tace "baban Mustapha, kasan dai ɓata lokacin ka da ranka zaka yi a gurin tambayar Safiyya a game da maganar nan, ba zata yi magana ba, wata nawa ana fama? Wacce irin tambaya ce bamu yi mata ba?" Yayi ajjiyar zuciya cike da damuwa yace "na sani Sa'adatu, na kasa hakura ne, gani nake kamar watarana zata tausaya min a matsayi na na mahaifin ta"

Naji hawaye na yana sauka akan hannayena da suke kan cinyata.

"Am sorry Daddy " na fada a hankali

"Sorry she said" ya maimaita. "Abinda ta iya fada kenan in anyi mata magana tace sorry" ya fada cikin kokarin daga murya, sai kuma yayi shiru yana mai da numfashi.

Mommy tace "abinda yasa kika dage da nacin sai mun biyo ta Abuja kenan ko? Kika yaudare mu mukayi tunanin you are after your father's health ashe ke kina da plan din ki da kika shirya ko Fiyya?" Na girgiza kai da sauri amma kuma part of me knows gaskiya take faɗa, except maganar daddy's health, tabbas dan in ganshi na nace sai mun tashi ta Abuja.

"Ba kuma zaki fadi ko waye shi ba ko?" Ta sake tambaya with hopelessness in her voice. Daddy yace "ba zata fada ba kin sani. Wallahi da na san zaki iya risking mutuncin ki da na family dinki ki fita ki tafi gurin sa da na ɗana miki tarko, da na saka an biki a baya an gano min ko waye shi, kuma wallahi da nayi masa abinda har ya mutu ba zai manta ba kamar yadda yayi min abinda har in mutu ba zan manta ba, da na rusa rayuwar sa kamar yadda ya rusa taki, da na....." Sai yayi shiru yana jan numfashi a kokarin daidaita numfashin sa da ya fara fita sama sama.

Na fara tracing tun sanda na fita har zuwa sanda na dawo a raina, ina so inga ko na haɗu da wani da ya san ni ko kuma na bar wani hint da zai taimaka wa Daddy yayi tracing Gidado, har sai da na tabbatar babu sannan naji hankali na ya fara kwanciya. Ba damuwa ta abinda Daddy zai wa Gidado in ya kama shi ba, cos I doubt idan zai iya yi masa komai, damuwa ta shine in akayi tracing Gidado to zai san komai, zai san gaskiyar komai and his parents will be involved too, our school management will also be involved, wannan duk yana nufin bacin sunan Gidado, sannan yana nufin goga masa baƙin fenti na har adaba. Wannan kuma shine abinda nake gudu, shine abinda zuciya ta ba zata iya dauka ba.

Ina cikin tunani na naji Daddy yana waya, "Mustapha kazo sama yanzu ina neman ka". Sai hankali na ya dawo jikina, wancan tashin hankalin ya marsa ya bawa wani sabon tashin hankalin gurin zama a cikin zuciya ta. "God, not him please" na fada a hankali ina mummurza yan yatsun hannuna cikin tsananin damuwa.

Tabbas ni nace da Daddy na amince da duk wani hukunci da zai yanke a kaina duk a kokari na ganin na rage masa radadin abinda yake tunanin nayi masa, amma kuma zuciya ta tana kakkaryewa a duk lokacin da ta hasaso hukuncin nasa, na san aure zai yi min, kuma na amince da auren amma kuma damuwa ta shine wa za'a aura min? Wanene Daddy zai zaba min a matsayin abokin rayuwata ta har abada. Shin zai zama blessing to me or a curse?