I Wish You Never Met Me

27

CHAPTER 27

ALMOST a month went by, and I hadn't heard anything from Lucas or Kayden. But honestly, the peace I've received in the last three weeks were the best three weeks I've ever had. The silence was what I needed. It helped silence the constant nuisance that went on in my brain for a while.

As for court stuff, everything has been going well. And as for my jobs, I'm still going to those. I mean, how else am I going to afford living where I am now. Although I live with Jaxson, I feel like leech. I feel terrible that he wakes up early to make breakfast for me even though I tell him not to.

I feel like I'm terrible cousin. I mean, I'm imploding on him and Marissa. About them, I hate having to watch them suffer like this. His dad forced him to break up with her. He tried to fill Jaxson's brain with all these lies about her being a gold-digger, only wanting him for his money, or how evil and disgusting her family is.

But that wasn't the case at all. I know deep down he still hurts. It still hurts having to let go of the person you truly loved and cared about. I know what heartbreak feels like. I now have felt it more than enough times to count. I'm starting to become numb. I was already numb to my own flesh and blood treating me like crap.

I'm done with relationships. I'm never getting into another one ever again. If I ever do, slap me across the face and tell me how stupid I am for doing it. Tell me how stupid I am to let go and trust someone again. Tell me how stupid I am for giving my heart to someone to hold and care for. Do I even have one if it broken again?

Walking the very hallways, I dread every time I see them, the leeches that didn't have a backbone snickered pointing at me. They most likely heard about what happened between Lucas and me. And the girl who blasted the information out was none other than Bridget herself. Did I see their little photo together in his house? Yes, I did. She posted that on Instagram and it just so landed on the explore page since Lucas snagged a little bit of a following since that video of our presentation blew up.

"Hey girlie," Monica pulled me into a tight hug. "I heard about what happened. You, okay?" her eyes drew concern as she partially pulled away.

"I'm good. I haven't had neither of them bother me. I'm free of them both now that they have each other."

"Are you sure?"

I gave her a reassuring smile. "Trust me. I've never been better. I can breathe properly now that they're gone."

"Don't speak so soon, girl," Monica warned.

My brows furrowed. I looked at her confused. "Why?"

"Because Matthews is coming over here, right now."

I turned to where she was looking and there he was, strutting his way through the crowd. The look on his face was serious. He practically ignored everyone that was trying to talk to him about him and Bridget's new "thing" together. Though his face was serious, I could tell due to the time I've spent with him, he was furious. Not that I care anyway.

"Come on, Mon, let's go to class."

Her face had this innocent, curious expression on it. "You don't want to hear what he wants to say."

"The last time I did that, I ended up getting cheated on and publicly humiliated more times than I could count. If no one wants to hear me, why should I bother listening to them?"

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When school was done, I thought my peace was going to stay for as long as it could. The leeches were already outside watching whatever they were watching. I caught a glimpse of it, but I don't care. I made a b-line for my car. My goal was to get out of this school parking lot, and I was going to achieve it.