FEARFUL & HER FEAR

Part:20 (Panic attack 2)

"The..the wes..western club" I replied making him nod.
I hesitated mumbling , "I...but..You.. You dont need to come "

He instantly raised his eyebrows making my tummy churned.

"I.. I me..mean If..if you are busy.. If..you..have work.. You do not need to come I I understand"finishing my lines I looked down at fingers who were fighting with each other in anxiety. I dont think my fear towards him will ever gonna go away .

"Do you want me with you?" he asked.

"If....you are busy then no ....I mean yes you can come but not like forcing ummm wooo "

"Yes or no , baby?"

"Y...es"

"Well , then request to me that nicely. With full right . Like a wife " his voice screamed dominance.

My heart felt heavy with unknown emotions.

As I was looking at me like a befool he cleared his throat saying, "Anand is going to call me to fix tomorrow's schedule in 5 minutes. So , I guess you should book me for yourself before that , right?"

I nodded along with him . Anxiety grabbed me tight hearing about the time limit . I looked at him with my teary eyes mumbling, "Ho..w..how do I need to request?"

"I already cleared that . Like a wife , with full right"

"C...an you...come with me ?"

"Not convincing enough . Convince me , baby"

"Um...Wo...I...Chaliyena sath please ?(Come along please?) " I tried one more time although his expression still said the same answer.

Tears were getting heavy and I started crying like a baby when Anand bhaiya called him. I failed. Started panicking ,fearing his disappointment.

But surprising me to my core , He immediately put his phone on silent mode pulling me towards him with worries in his eyes .

"Shhhhhhhh calm down "

"I...disappointed you again" I cried more this time wanting his warmth on my jaw just like before. I like when he cups my face with his big ruoghy hands . It feels safest. It feels home . I wonder how will I feel when he'll hug me ? I was closer to him but not enough to be in a hug.

"You did not .You were trying "

"But not good enough to make you come with me " I muttered demanding more attention but he didn't say anything making me realise I was right.

"How... do I do it ? Teach me once , I'll remember it always. I promise " I whined holding his hand sleeve tightly . I know this is kiddish but somewhere in my heart , I know when it comes to learning something..I want him to teach me . He teaches that well.

"Now I need to teach you how to demand like a wife too?" His lips curved in a smile taking my breath away .

I still nodded leaving my shame behind. I can't disappoint him always.

"First Hold my hand , not sleeve" he ordered making my cheeks red . I looked at his hand . The most handsome hand I've ever seen . I almost smiled but then I remembered how I saw them punching that guy . I froze .

" You are taking time" He huskily said .

I immediately hold his one hand tightly with my both hands nodding no.

And how did it felt ? Surreal . His hand was so so bigger than my that half of his hand was out my grab . I hoped he didn't mind although his expression looked unchanged. How ? Here , touching his hand was making me feel electric shock passing through my body . But I still kept a hold .

"Now repeat with me .
I want to spend some time with my husband. Can you please come with me to the party?I want you with me tomorrow" he stated making my ears red & heart skip beats continuously.

"I...I ..." he eagerly waited while my voice betrayed me . The sentences he wants me to say is way too appealing.I closed my eyes in nervousness but felt his palm that was in my hand making soothing circles .

"You can do it , Come on . Be a good girl for me"

His encouragement melted my heart like a candle . Good girl for him ? Yes , I want to be . I want to be the best girl for him .

I opened my eyes biting my lips & repeated his lines clearly holding my breath. He smiled a bit pulling his hand out from my both palms & patting my head in praise .

I missed his hands but didn't speak anything . Just stayed in my seat with butterflies carrying tummy . My cheeks heated like oven . I wish he cud pat my cheeks with his cold hands to cool them down . But never mind . I was already feeling giddy .

Suddenly my eyes fell on a grocery shop which reminded me to buy Pads as I was running out of them . I mumbled,"I ... need to buy something "

He ordered the driver to stop the car and started going out making me hold his sleeve tightly .

"You ... where are you going?"

"With you"

"No ... No ... You dont need to come ... Please wait me for 5 minutes. I'll be back within 4 minutes " I stammered in horror & then left the car immediately.

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I was trying to look for the one I find most comfortable but was not getting it . I kept looking on when I saw it on the upper shelves . Gulping I tried to reach them but wasn't able to due to my short height.

"Are you on period?" a boy said standing infront of me with another boy . I ignored them and tried to put that down but the started walking closer and on no time they were almost caging me with one shelf . I panicked, " What ... is this behaviour?"

"Just trying to help you ,woman . We can help you in wearing one too" one of them said making me feel like throwing up . I pushed them saying , " Go away or I'll call my husband and trust me he's not gonna leave any...any one of you"
I tried to sound brave but they mocked me coming close saying," Call him . Lets see what he can do to a minister's s....." and before even he could finish he was thrown away from me .
I looked up looking at the most trustworthy face . I cried in happiness but soon it turned into horror as he punched two of them so badly that they fall on floor like a sac bag . The SIDDHARTH KHAN is back . The face I fear the most was back . He glared as soon as the shopkeeper came running .

That guy mumbled, "Si...ddharth... Sir..."

Before he could ask about those two sac bags he was gifted with a slap across his face making me force my crying sound to stop . I could feel my panic attack grasping me to dead . I was taking sharp breath as I heard him shout on that man , "Where the fu**k you where when these two mfs were harassing a girl?"

That guy wanted to say sorry whispering but was rewarded with another slap. Those hands which were making me feel warmth just a moment ago was now looking like a killing tool. I couldn't hold my sense more . I fell down on floor surrendering to my panick attack as the scenes were way harsher than I could take in with my eyes .

Part finished