My Sister's Boyfriend

Chapter thirty-two

I woke up with a stomach ache, I barely slept all night, the last hour I remember was 7. I look over to my clock and see 12:47. I sit up quickly, I can't let Danny leave without me saying goodbye. He was going to leave in less than an hour. I got up and quickly pushed my long hair into a messy ponytail. I put on my old rugged Florida rowing hoodie and I walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth. I look up into the mirror in front of me and I squint my eyes. My eyes were puffy and my face was pale. Kaley walks by and she says,
    "Hurry up I have to go," I turn my face to her and she immediately walks towards me,
    "Woah...what the heck happened to you? You look terrible," she says to me with a curious face. I roll my eyes and I put my toothbrush up.
    "Thanks, that makes me feel so much better," I say and then walk past her. She probably didn't mean it in a mean way but she says things like that all of the time. She did look a little worried though, no one ever sees me cry. I walk downstairs and then go out of the front door. It wasn't too cold outside, there wasn't a breeze and the sun shining was starting to melt the snow. I run over to Danny's house and walk in. Carol was cutting up apples to make an apple pie.
    "Hi sweetie," she says to me surprised that I just walked in.
    "Hi Carol, um is Danny around?" I ask hugging my stomach. She puts the knife down and furrows her brows,
    "No honey he went to go get snacks for the plane trip back, but he should be home any minute now," Carol says. She walks up closer to me and rests her hands on my shoulders. I look at her and try to hide my face.
    "Honey are you okay?" she asks me with a worried look on her face. I nod,
    "Yes I'm okay, I just didn't sleep well last night," I say with a fake smile. She raises her eyebrows and smiles.
    "It's all gonna work out Kare, it always does," she says quietly. I look at her quickly, does she know? I think to myself as I look around.
    "W-what do you mean?" I ask with a stutter. She smiles and looks down,
    "You know, just trust me, it may be hard in the beginning, but it will all come together in the end," she says. I smile and nod,
    "I wish you were my mom, Carol," I hug her quickly.
    "You will always be my daughter, from anotha mutha," she laughs and so do I. I look out of her living room window and see that his truck is in the driveway. I say bye to Carol and then I run to go find him. He wasn't outside so the only place he could be was in my house. I entered my house and I asked my mom where he was.
    "He went upstairs," she says without looking up from her book.
    "Upstairs?" I ask again. She nods and then I quickly run upstairs. Kaley wasn't in her room so he must've been in my room. I open my door slightly and I see him looking out of my window. He looks back and I close my door behind me. He slightly smiles at me and then he drops it. I feel more tears coming along.
    "Danny-" I say but I'm cut off by him kissing me. I pull away from him and I bury my head into his chest.
    "I'm sorry...I just hate the fact of losing you," I whisper. He caresses my hair and he pulls me back to look at me.
    "Don't look at me I look crazy," I say trying to hide my face.
    "Don't say that, you could never look bad," he says. "And I know it's probably not going to be the best reaction but I want you, you!" he says. "I don't care if they hate us," he says. I start to cry,
    "I'm gonna miss you so much," I finally break.
    "You don't know how much I'm going to miss you, but remember what I said yesterday? I'll call you every night," he says. I nod and smile,
    "This can work, I know it can, we'll tell them right now, and then you'll go to college, I kinda wish I could run away from this mess too," I say. He nods,
    "If I could take you with me I would," I laugh and then I go on my tippy toes to kiss him.
    "Hey Kara do you know where my..." I quickly pull away from Danny. My heart throbs, there was a 1% chance she didn't see me kissing him. Danny looks down and I just stare at her blank white face. She has a look of confusion and hurt at the same time. That's it she knew about us, it was over. I started to stutter, I couldn't spit out any words.
    "Kaley?" I say my tears start to spill out. She exhales with a chuckle, but I could tell it was her fake one.
    "I knew it.." she whispers.
    "Kaley..." I say walking closer to her.
    "I freaking knew it!" she says out loud. "So it wasn't just me thinking you both were being weird this whole time, you two are together!" She says putting her hands on her head.
    "Kaley please hear me out!" I say starting to freak out. I felt like the walls were closing in on me.
    "How could you? Both of you? You knew how important he was to me Kara, you knew!" she says, crying with me. She starts to run away, Danny tries to stop me from following her,
    "No let me fix this!" I say. He lets me go and I run after her. My mom yells and says,
"What on earth is going on?" We both are outside now and Kaley shakes her head as she sees me.
    "Kaley please-" I say desperately. Kaley walks closer to me. I hear the door open and my mom and Danny just stand there.
    "I don't want your stupid explanation, Kara, it's not even the fact that you're together, I guess I'm over Danny now but that isn't even the point!" She yells.
"It's the point that you went behind my back not even considering how I might've felt, " she cries out. That wasn't fair, she never even took into consideration my feelings. I scoff and then I shake my head even more tears pour out of my eyes.
"Not considering your feelings? Wow Kaley!" I shout. "Kaley I have been trying to keep away from him for years because I knew how important he was to you, I knew you loved him and that he'd always be yours, and you wanna know why I did that? Because I love you!" I say. She blinks slowly taking in what I said to her.
"But sometimes...it's hard when you're always the person everyone loves," I say quietly.
"That's not true..." she sort of whispers.
"You know it's true Kaley, you have always known that!" I say.
"I have loved Danny ever since I was nine, nine!" I shout which makes her step back a bit. "And it's your fault for not seeing it..." I say. We both go quiet for a minute and she just stands there with her head down,
"I don't know what to say," I nod my eyes practically swollen shut now.
"I don't either..." I say quietly. We just stare at each other. I quickly glance at Danny behind me. His face was red, he looked so miserable I could tell he felt bad for both of us. I look back at Kaley and she has one of her hands clutched on her forearm.
"I'm sorry you had to see that, I'm sorry for all of this," I say with a sniffle. I wipe my eyes and then walk back on my porch. My mom had a look of disgust on her face, but she also looked worried. I made eye contact with Danny and he opened his mouth like he was gonna say something.
"Not now," I say to him and then I run to my room. I looked out of my window and saw my mom comforting Kaley, and then I saw Danny trying to talk to her but she just refused. She eventually got in her car and drove off somewhere. Little did I know Carol was there listening too. I hoped she understood my point of view too, but she always did in some way. 20 minutes passed, and it was quiet in the house until I heard my door open. I quickly looked over to see who it was. It was Danny. I scooted off my bed away from him.
"Danny I can't right now please," I say crying again. He rushes to me and tries to get me to look at him.
"Kara please, just look at me," he says in a sad voice.
"I can't look at you because then it'll make everything worse," I say with his hands on my cheeks.
"I love you, Kara," he whispers. I cry even harder,
"You can't love me and I can't love you. Danny my sister is heartbroken...because of us...we shouldn't have done this, we knew the consequences," I whisper. "This relationship is the thing that is making everyone unhappy, I can't deal with all of that," I say.
"It's too late Kara don't you think? We already fell in love, it's done," he says. I grasp my head, my head pounding so hard.
"She's my sister, I can't do something that will make her unhappy, I love her too much," I say. He sighs,
"Don't you think you deserve to be happy too? For once in your life Kara, stop putting everyone above yourself!" he shouts. I shake my head and bite the inside of my cheek.
"Of course I still love her, I mean I will always love Kaley, she's been in my life since the beginning, but I'm in love with you, what am I supposed to do with that?" he asks, this time he's crying.
"I don't know..." I whisper to the point where he can't hear me.
"What?"
"I don't know!" I yell and there I am crying again.
"I-I'm sorry...this was a mistake," I say as I wrap my arms around my stomach. I see him nod slowly in my peripheral vision as I'm looking down.
"It was never a mistake," he says quietly but then he leaves, and just like that the love of my life was gone again. It turns out that today was the day I was going to lose everything. I wish I could turn back time, but I couldn't it was too late. My mom didn't talk to me the whole rest of the night. She was probably the most disappointed in me then she has ever been in her whole life. Carol made eye-contact with me before she left with Danny to the airport, she seemed sad, I don't know if it was because of me or just because she knew it would ruin everything. I stayed in my room the whole rest of the day mostly crying, I prayed too. I wanted her to come in here and apologize but I remembered that I did something wrong too. I thought about Danny, how he must be feeling, I felt really bad for snapping at him, although I felt really bad about everything. I felt like a villain in a big story, I never wanted to be the villain.