Immortal Feelings (M.E)

Chapter 5

Y/n's pov
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my eyes fluttered open and all I could see was brightness all around me. at first I thought I was dead but then I felt warmness surrounding my body. I looked beside me and there he was. Matt was lying beside me, cuddled against my side.
I honestly didn't know what to think. did we have sex? did he just fall asleep here? I have no memory of last night.
I slipped out from under his grip and walked into my bathroom to splash some water on my face.
everything seemed 10x brighter and my head killed.
I changed into a white tee and some black shorts and then put my hair in a messy bun.
I sat on the end of my bed and waited for Matt to wake up.
he started to move under the covers.
"Matt, please wake up" I said, poking his arm.
"hmm?" he said, yawning and then sitting up.
he opened his eyes and then smiled.
"hey beautiful" he said, running his fingers through his messy hair.
"uh, what happened last night?" I asked him, admiring his features.
"oh, no no, nothing like that" he said.
"then what?" I asked.
"I climbed into your room last night, looking to talk to you but you weren't in your room. I decided to wait for a little bit and soon enough, you came stumbling into your room. so I picked you up, placed you on the bed and then laid beside you and fell asleep" he said, placing his hand on my thigh.
I pushed his hand off and stood up.
"I'm so sorry for the way I acted last night and thank you for helping me but you need to go. this can't happen. me and u. it just won't work...please just go" I said, pacing back and forth.
he got up and grabbed my shoulders, stopping me from pacing.
"calm down y/n. take a deep breath and chill. it's okay. I realize your under a lot of stress but just relax" he said, pulling me into a hug.
his arms wrapped around me, holding me tight. he made me feel safe and secure.
I finally relaxed and then pulled away from his hug.
I stared into his eyes and he smiled. I couldn't stand it anymore. I wanted his lips on mine. I wanted to feel his body pressed against me, his hands exploring my body.
"kiss me" I said, after a long silence.
"wait what" he said, with a confused look on his face.
"I said kiss me Matthew" I repeated, smirking.
he pushed me up against the wall and placed his lips on mine. our lips moved in sync as he placed his hands on my hips. he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. our kiss didn't break the whole time. I pulled away and smiled.
"how are you feeling now?" he smirked, pecking me once more on the cheek.
"better" I said blushing.
he grabbed my hands and we both stood up.
"I better get home, my family's probably worried" he said winking.
"I'll see you in school tomorrow" I said.
"you will" he said and then climbed out of my window.
I went over to my window and looked down.
Matt was still there, smiling up at me.
I waved goodbye and then he walked away.
I laid down on my bed and grabbed my journal. I put on some good music, sat up, and started writing.
dear diary,
it's Sunday and it's been the best Sunday in awhile by far. I mean yeah, yesterday was rough for all I can remember but still, today made up for it. Matt Espinosa was in my bed this morning. MY bed. he stayed over. no we didn't have sex but still he slept over. he's really sweet and kind and I'm really starting to like him.
until next time,
y/n
I put my journal back down on my desk side table and then shut off my light.
I heard a knock on the door and I got up and opened it.
"hey mom.." I said.
"we need to talk" she said giving me a stern look.
"yeah ik" I said, sitting down on the edge of my bed.
"why. why would you do something like that. after everything we've taught you. why y/n" she asked, shaking her head.
"idk! I wanted to try it. I was curious and wanted to let go for the night. the boy was cute a-and they peer pressured me into it. I'm so sorry" I answered, starting to cry.
"I'm leaving you here in your room for now to think about everything and well talk again later" she said and left my room.
I never meant to disappoint anyone. I just wanted to feel free.
I picked up my phone and on the front screen was a text from an unknown number.