Diary of a Messed Up Teenager

Introduction

Hello, I'm Solaris Ookami... Or you can call me however you like.

Well y'see I usually write my stories 'bout fanfics and that. Now I decided to make something personal, like the diary of my life. A friend of mine (andreagonz2001 ) gave me the inspiration and told me that it helps to let what you feel out. If you wanna read feel free, if not you're free too.

So let me tell you that I had really short periods of my childhood when I was happy. I was unique daughter and a problematic crybaby.

I was in a beautiful kinder, yet I didn't have friends. I didn't need them 'cause I had the teachers and nannies who always give you games and things to distract yourself.

Anyways, I used to be a bully who always messed up with others... I bit and hit everyone, but that turned to be my habitual manners and I just got shitty lectures all the times. I really don't remember that time, I was little. Nvm, there was this day where I did something (Forgot that), and I was literally told This "you're going to stay in recess, no one wants a trouble maker!!!!" I cried for more than an hour, I don't remember myself crying more than that, nobody went to comfort me and my parents just ignored me and not even made my food because my parents were "really job filled" And I knew it was a fucking lie...

Slowly I got distant from people, because it understood I hurt them... In recess I would eat slowly to lose time and without need of going out with the kids.

3 years later, my sister was born, I was completely ignored, and I was jealous of her, I didn't want to talk to her not even look at her. One day my parents sent me with this woman that had lots of games, music, and a great attitude. I considered her as my best friend... But I had no idea it was a fucking psychologist to love my sister... My parents never told me it was for that. So when I didn't see her again, I was certainly more depressed than I already was. 6 years, and I was already depressed.

We moved from house and school... I entered this school, Merici, where I started as the black sheep, I tried to fit but they first excluded me because they usually choose one person to bully because they want to... They bullied me with a fucking song "Ugly Stupid Big Fat Pig" they would do it everyday nonstop and the teachers didn't give a fuck. Everyone hated me by the first month.

Sorry for the shortness... I'm not really in the mood for writing. I'll writing everyday until I get to actuality. Please stay tuned <3