Diary of a Messed Up Teenager

Regret

I blocked her again. Wattpad says she can't see my stories.

If she does, she'll show Plus, she shows and tells her everything I say or do and viceversa.

But Wattpad said it won't. I trust it, maybe that's the only thing I trust.

My mind told me Asuna wouldn't listen to me, because now she has all her hate on me.

We went to a place called the frikiplaza. And I didn't invite her. I told Plus not to tell her, but she did.

The reason I didn't invite her was because she had been ignoring us the week before. She seemed happier with the other guys, and if she ignored you it would feel like she doesn't want to be friends anymore.

Just three days before something happened, called the Spuerc and after that she didn't talk to us no more. I won't explain it.

That's the reason why I didn't, yet it was not my idea... the other guys told me not to, but it still was my fault.

Now it's too late to explain that to her and everything.

Lately I don't trust anyone but my boyfriend, but he's not from my school so he has no one to tell...

Even my best friends are not trustworthy, I love them but, they've told things about me.

And Plus, she's a nice person, an awesome person. But she tells everything.

I trust you guys because you don't even know me. Sorry.

Well, Asuna and Chii-tan were dating.

Asuna told Plus that because she suspected, and Plus told the most gossiper guy, who told all middle school.

I'm not one to talk behind someone's back, I hate that. If I said something it wasn't on bad means, or it was something inoffensive. Because people used to do that to me, I'd never do it.

Like right now I'm not saying nothing wrong about anyone, basically facts.

Thing is, Asuna says I'm talking behind her back.

I once said: What the fuck? She first is with us then she abruptly leaves for the guys she said she hated?

That's the most hard thing I've said.

My friends talk bad about her, except for Kanato.

Yes, I will admit yesterday I said things, but those I said in her own story to her, because I was mad.

I regretted them five minutes later. But I can't handle my emotions. Now apologizing twice will be for nothing.

I think Plus is changing things I say. And inventing things.

I tried to find out what we "supposedly" said behind her back. Because I needed to see if I actually said that.

I decided to throw away the towel.

I tried to fix things but only got them worse. :| Even though I didn't say anything.

I sound like gossip now but, Plus is hypocrite over 9000.

At the bus Plus starts to say things about everyone.

Plus said the thing that Asuna likes this guy to everyone.

She told about my crush on Gentoka.

She says "Asuna is my friend but she's going too far."

Too far and she keeps telling her everything.

After telling everyone the thing of her relationship with Chii-tan, her friends and her started going with "Asuna is lesbian".

This information is not worthy now but I had to let it go out.

I lost Asuna forever, and gained an enemy.

Well now, I'm moving on, there's no point, the past is in the past.

The next chapters will be like normal ones.

Thanks for reading <3

Update September 2016: Yeah, giving up is my thing. This isn't sarcasm.

This was posted on March 10, 2016.