Diary of a Messed Up Teenager

Chocolate & Red Lipstick

Let me tell you, life has been hard these days specially, I certainly don't want to get into details, because I have something else to talk about. A person that changed my life completely, we will call him Chocolate, because his sweetness is addictive and so is he.

I can't explain how it makes me feel to be with him, there's not a hint of bitterness in his way of being, people say we are the perfect match but I'm certainly not sure... But let's think positively, the point here... I have a boyfriend, and he's so incredible, even with flaws, but if you ask me, I can't see any flaw in him.

We were in social project class last Thursday (the name says it but in case, we go to places in small groups and help girls or middle-aged people), basically returning and in the bus, he told me the story of his life in another dimension and how he got to this one, killing his normal self, he decided to stay because he loved this one and the people in it... He told me how Professor Thompson (let's just believe his story) told him to fall in love with Buckegshnagen (Here comes her again...), he said he did for a while but failed, and the three dimensions when he married her were destroyed. He told me he liked someone else of our class and I was like "Schlieden?" He said no... "Buckegshnagen?" Not anymore "andreagonz01 / andreagonz2001 ?" Nope, from our class "Sarah? (Another girl)" No "me?" Yes... Yes yes yes yes fucking yes. I was surprised but as you have noticed earlier I was done with relationships so I told him... "I really used to like you. But since you liked Buckegshnagen I saw no point in trying. After what Gentoka did (yes he knows) I don't want to think about anyone..."

"But if there is an opportunity... Would you be with me? Because I don't think you'll think like that forever."

"Yes"

"I swear on my life, I'll never hurt you like he did, I'll never play with you" I wanted to cry, that was so cute... it was awkward all the way back, but then on Sunday

Chat:

Me: Hey

Him: Sup

Me: Remember Thursday? I stopped thinking the way I did and I like you back

Him: Girl I'm so happy! But I want to ask you in person if you don't mind

Me: It's perfectly fine! I'm glad you're happy

So then on Monday it was an indirect because he didn't tell me, we just chatted sweetly and exchanged smiles.

What andreagonz2001 /andreagonz01 told me was that he loved me (in the small way because in Spanish there are two translations for I love you, the love love way and the cute way, that was cute) but he was shy... Awwww

I'm going on his bus because I'm staying with father this week, so in his bus we sat together and we took hands all the way to his house, laying our heads in each other's (IM OLDER AND TALLER THAN HIM MUAHAHAHAH)... I was scared... I've never felt such a gentle touch... Such a sweet look placed upon my eyes, I'm really happy with him.

Then yesterday a girl sat between us (Fuck you Fabiana -_- [not my sister other]) and he put his arm around her to reach me, he played with my hair and rubbed my cheek with his fingers... Goodness... I can't stop smiling.

Today, in music class, he was singing a song and he was like "and then he left with Max's sexy girlfriend!!!! No offense you're sexier than her~"

"No I'm not"

"Sexier~ Sexier~ Sexier!!!!!!!!" he told me sexy... HE told ME sexy... My gosh that killed me.

Then in recess I grabbed his foot from the stairs and he was like "What's up?" I smiled and he winked AHHHHHHHH FUCKING FANGIRLING RIGHT NOW

Okay... On the bus... He told me he loved me like love love, rubbing my cheek with this Fabiana in the middle (-_-#) and he smiled to me. Fabiana was playing Yandere simulator and he was like, I'm your senpai, I answered yes and I'll kill all the girls in my way, even Gentoka (because he's his best friend) if necessary, and I'm going to kidnap you, he laughed... I love his smile... His laugh...

I love him like the love love...

Update 2016: Teen love, everyday, hormones, everywhere.

I honestly passed the phase in which you supposedly need a couple to be happy, go get a walk or Doritos and have fun with yourself.

I understood that from experience.

This was posted on October 21, 2015.